When he loved me.. ~Victuri MPreg~

Victor

"Yuri wait!!" I yelled as I ran after my past lover. He was so close but yet so far.

I ran as fast as I could but it was no use. Yuri was way to fast, I would never catch him at this rate.

I bend over holding my knees as I panted in exhaustion. I ran so much that my lungs stung each time I inhaled and felt as if they were stretching each time I exhaled.

As I looked up to where yuri once was I felt as though I was going to cry. He was right there! I could have talked to him!

He straightened up and pushed my fringe from my eyes looking over the street where yuri ran. It was all too familiar here..

I watched as the citizens of the town walked past without a care. Each and every one of them living their own lives without sparing me a thought.

I felt selfish for wanting them to care about the mess I had seemed to fall into but I was still hurting. I never got over yuri. Ever.

When I moved back to Russia to begin my career I wasn't surrounded by many people who cared. I was told to push my feeling aside and concentrate on winning gold. That's what I did.

However, lately my heart seems to be cutting open again at even the mention of yuri's name. He's been on my mind twenty four seven, I can't seem to forget him.

The way he ran, it was like he never wanted to see me again. Which is probably the case...

I let my gaze fall to my feet again. "What at I doing?" I muttered to myself letting out a long sigh. "He obviously doesn't want to see me... in a fool for thinking I could fix things..." I finished as I dragged my feet towards the ice rink once more.

As I made my way up the street I looked up and around me. I always loved Japan. It was so beautiful, the blooming cherry blossoms that fell delicately to the ground, carried by a small gentle breeze. The way all the people seemed to be carefree and happy. Japan was indeed beautiful.

My mind replayed memories of me and yuri walking along these streets. I remember his smaller hands lacing together perfectly with mine as he walked side by side through the falling blossoms and listening to the sound of the waves and seagulls in the slight distance.

I remember him looking up at me with those big brown eyes of his. They filled with love and happiness and as I looked into them my heart seemed the burst. It made me so happy that I could call that beautiful boy mine...

But it's different now...

Now I spend my time laying in my home with maccachin thinking about the what ifs.

What if we stayed together? Would we be still as happy as we were? Would we have a family? Would we still be in Japan?

When I looked up I realised I was back at the rink. I let my lips curl up into a smile as I thought about the first day I showed up here....

Me and yuri skating together. My fists clenched as I felt tears well up in my eyes.

What we had was perfect! Nothing was better than that! Why did yuri throw it away!

I let my mind ask these questions as I shut my eyes tightly in attempt to keep the tears from falling.

I loved him so much! I loved him so much it hurt! Why wasn't my love good enough for him! What did I do wrong!

I felt the tears leak from my eyes and down my pale cheeks as I turned on my heels.

This is my chance to find out! To hell I'm letting him go again! I swear yuri I'm not going back to Russia until I show my love to you!

I started running again away from the ice rink once more. My life was going in a spiral right now. Nothing was going right for me and I knew why.

I'm nothing without you yuri! You make me who I am. If I don't have you I have nothing at all! I would rather die then not be able to talk to you again

My brain was screaming to not go back, telling me that he was no good and I need to move on. Telling me to go back and leave yuri to live his happy life without me.

My heart, my heart was telling me the opposite. My heart hold me to run after him like my life depended on it. To catch him and confess everything to him and hopefully win him back.

After all, if he was so happy with his life now he wouldn't have run from me.

My body halted as I stood outside the familiar hot spring me and yuri used to live in. We met here... I was butt naked but he didn't care... it was love at first sight.

I smiled to myself as I walked forward towards the door.

He was just a door away.

It surprised me that I knew the directions back to this place. I chuckled at how my subconscious mind managed to take me here.

As I reached up and knocked on the door my heart started beating rapidly. What if he rejects me? I bit my lip as I tired to shake away those thoughts when the door opened revealing the most beautiful person in the world.

His raven hair fell perfectly against his face. His big brown eyes looking at me through his glasses that fit securely on the bridge of his nose. I felt my mouth open slightly in awe.

Yuri...

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