When he loved me.. ~Victuri MPreg~

Yuri

"Katsu! Come back and eat your dinner!" I called out as my three year old son waddled around on his tiny toddler legs.

Yuuko walks in and picks him up walking over to me. "Not eating again huh?" She says putting him down in the chair.

"No... he only wants to eat pork cutlet bowels.." I replied with a sigh as I put the fork back into my sons hand.

"Just like his dad's then..." she replied laughing lightly.

I chuckled in response as I ruffled Katsu's hair. Even at three he had a lot of victors features.

His eyes were the beautiful turquoise colour that made Victor seem almost god like... well to me anyway. His hair however was jet black like mine but he had the same parting as Victor. It's hard to tell what facial structure he has due to all his baby fat but as he is getting older... I see more Victor in him then ever..

"Are you going to tell Victor?" Yuuko asked as she watched Katsu shove some food into his mouth.

"What no! He can't know... he'll stop skating if he does find out.." I said, sighing looking down. I know it is wrong for me to keep Katsu a secret but I really have no choice. Victors love for skating is bigger than he love for me... and I can't put my son through the pain of not having his dad around....

So if he doesn't know he has another one... he'll never be hurt.

"You can't just keep him a secret!... your struggling to do this by yourself!" She protests. She has a point. The last few months have been terrible for me. I lost my home here in Hasetsu and ended up living with my parents. On top of that, with Katsu getting older... I've had no time to rest. My life revolves around working and bringing him up.

"But you did it? It couldn't be that hard?" I argued looking down at little Katsu.

"Yes, and I had Nishigori to help me out... Look I never said it was easy... but you keeping this a secret is not fair on any of you.." she says sighing.

I opened my mouth to reply before Katsu started coughing.

"Slow down little piggy.... you might choke" I said smiling lovingly down at him.

He looked up at me with those beautiful eyes of him and nodded taking smaller bites at a slower speed.

After a while he finished and ran off to play with his toys.

I smiled and picked up his dishes bringing them to clean them up. Yuuko has been a great help to me. Her, Nishigori, my parents and Phichit... though he can only visits when he can.

Phichit is the only skater I told about Katsu... I trust him to not tell anyone and so far he hasn't.

"I better go... I need to pick the girls up from practise.." she says picking up her jacket.

"Alright! Tell the girls I said hi!" I called out as she left.

"Papa? Im tired.." Katsu says, as he rubbed his eyes. I smiled at him and picked him up.

"Lets get you to get little piggy" I said to him carrying him to his room.

Katsu rested his head against my chest his eyes fluttering shut as he fell asleep peacefully.

As I layed him down I couldn't help but remember Victor....

I miss him so much but this is for the best.

For the both of us...