Amnesia // Luke Hemmings

Chapter 6

*Calum's P.O.V.*

Damn, shit went down. I wonder what ticked Luke off. I shouldn't worry about it, it's none of my business. I regret bringing Katrina, she probably will never want to hang out with me. Well isn't this just perfect. Right when I get really close to a girl I really like, something bad happens. Does she still want to be my friend after today? Maybe she's just scared of Luke now, or she hates me for not giving her a warning about Luke. Well, let's find out.

"Katrina, can I talk to you?" I say, tugging at her arm.

"Okay." She says nervously, she must hate me right now.

I lead her into another room and ask her, "Do you hate me?"

"What?" she gasps.

"Do you hate me?" I ask once more.

"Why would I ever hate you?  You're the best person, like ever." She replies, then blushing after she realizes what she had just said,

"Well, I forgot to tell you about Luke, and you probably don't want to hang out with me anymore since he's my friend and I-" She cuts me off by hugging me.

"Calum, I could never hate you. You're too cute." She says against my shoulder.

"Well if anything I think you're beautiful." I stare into her eyes as I say that.

She immediately blushes and I think right now would be the best time to kiss her. I lift her chin, and press my lips against her. This was a good move, I can tell because I feel her smiling. She's a really good kisser, and after a few more seconds, we pull apart.

"Wow." She says, with a wide smile,

"Will you be my girlfriend?" I blurt out.

"Of course, I've liked you for a long time now." She says as she pulls my into a hug.

"I've liked you since the first time I set my eyes on you. You're absolutely beautiful and I'm sure everyone else agrees." I whisper in her ear.

She pulls away from the hug and says, "Should we tell them?"

"Tell who? The lads? Of course! They're going to be happy!" I say grabbing her hand as I drag her back into the room.

I walk into the room and Ashton automatically yells, "Aw! Katrina and Calum are holding hands! Are you guys dating now or what?"

We both look at each other and simultaneously say, "Yes." while we tighten the grip on our hands.

"Welcome to the club!" Michael says to us, giving us each a high five.

"Wait, you and Mayra are dating?" Katrina asks a bit confused.

"Yes," he gives Mayra, who is on the side of him, giving her a kiss on her head.

"You go Mikey!" I say brofisting him.

"Hey I'm still single!" Ashton pouts.

We all laugh, if only Luke was here.

*Luke's P.O.V.*

I finally arrive home, and I get out of my car exhausted, I just want to get into my bed and sleep forever. I open the door and shout, "Mom? You home?" and I get no reply. She's probably working late again. I'm kind of happy because all I want to do right now is be by myself. I love my mom a lot, but I just need some time to myself after what happened today. I walk up the stairs and open up the door to my room. I take off my shirt first, then my pants. i feel more comfortable by myself. I try to sleep, but thoughts over come my mind.

They don't care, they're happy you left

She'll never love you anymore.

Everyone hates you, especially her.

My heart starts aching, and soon I'm crying. Why can't the voices in my head leave me alone? I'm just a lonely, insecure, boy in Australia. Why me? I already get enough hate from myself, but these voices, they make it unbearable. It makes me want to do certain things, I'm pretty sure you know what it is. But I stay strong for myself and her.

When we were together, I told her that I self-harm. When I told her, she started crying and she lifted up my sleeve. Shen then removed all my bracelets and began crying even more when she saw old scars, and freshly cut scars. She looked me in the eyes and said,

"Please don't ever do this to yourself Luke. Please for me."

And I haven't self-harmed since then. I never want to, but without her, what's the point of staying strong? She was my sunshine, she kept me strong. Now I have no one. Not even the lads know what I've done, nor my mother. I don't want to tell them, I don't want to become more of a burden to them as I already am one.

God I fucking hate myself. I wish I had her still. I remember waking up to her on my side, the way her hair was all messed up, or how her make up smudged. She absolutely was beautiful, I wish she didn't wear the make-up though, she's beautiful with out it. Why do I keep thinking of her?

Luke, listen to youself. She doesn't love you anymore. She loves Calum now. Speaking of Calum, should I text him to see what happened after the whole incident?

Why Luke? They don;t even care about you, you worthless piece of shit.

I still send a text, no matter what the voices say. The text said, "Hey Cal, sorry I left early, had a small incident. How was the rest of the practice? I won't leave next time, I'm sorry. Tell the lads that too."

A few minutes pass, and I hear a ding from my phone.

"It was nothing. We didn't pratice without you. But there's some good news! Me and Katrina are dating now :)"

As soon as I read that text, I felt my heart collapse into pieces. It's like someone is stabbing me in the heart, millions of times. I knew this was going to happen. I'm going to have to live with this. Will I even be able to bear the sight of seeing my old love with one of my bestfriends? I glance down again at my phone and see a text from an unknown number. The text reads,

"Hi Luke, It;s Katrina :-) Calum gave my your number. I want to apologize for what happened today, and I wish that didn't happen. It's probably really weird between us now, so yeah. It's really late so text me back when you can, goodnight x."

At this point, my stomach and heart are going crazy. I just send a simple text back, "Good night to you aswell :-)" And with that I'm asleep in no time.