okay i can't sleep asdffbghjbg
so instead i'm just gonna write in here i guess
today was good i think. recently i haven't been good so having a mediocre day is really nice. i woke up and took a shower, made coffee like usual.
than i went downstairs and wrote a little, but mainly watched that 70s show (which i've started today).
after that jazz at like 6 i walked my doggo and it was nice. it's been cold recently which i like. i think it's supposed to snow tomorrow so yay
when i got back home i practiced guitar for a couple hours. i'm trying to learn royals on guitar ((mainly bc it's p simple an only has 3 chords in it lol))
so um yeah.
i hate that i haven't been happy recently. i think it might be bc i just started new meds a week ago so my body may just be adjusting or something?? my doctor also told me that it may make my anxiety or mood worse ((aka the opposite of what it's supposed to do)). it's also making me gain weight so ascvgdrbnjg
~i love being stuffed with drugs~
at first i couldn't understand why people don't like meds and refuse to take them, but now i kinda understand. its frustrating sometimes that i have to take 3 separate types of medicine to be a below par functioning human being. like i might as well give up. it's like i'm not meant to survive if i have to do all this to half way live.
but don't get me wrong, i'm very grateful that i can get the help i need i just get down sometimes so yeah. thank u doctors and therapists i love u.
aNyWaYs
i'm gonna attempt to go to bed
sleep well, hug a dog, take a walk, love yourself
goodnight love you~
