so my sister is talking really loud on the phone so i can't go to sleep
btw we share a room so that's why
here are some thoughts i have rn:
-i can feel myself slipping into a deep deep depression
-im not mad about it
-it's nice having it back. like an old toxic friend you miss. i enjoy/hate having him back.
-it's like this. they tells me everyone else in this world hates me and they're the only one that can protect me. and i trust them.
-i know i shouldn't
-but i just want them back in my life
-i just realized i've been saying them
-you see i think of my depression as this being. i talk to them a lot. is that weird? like i speak to them out loud and i hear them back ??
-am i insane?
-i don't know
-i should stop letting them control me
-but with them controlling me i don't have to do anything.
-i need to get back in control but i'm tired
-bye
