so you know how literally everyone ever says 'when ur a teenager you always think that this means everything and nothing's gonna get better'
i was always was like 'yeah okay. i know that right? i keep everything in perspective'
then
i realized
no
for example my thoughts tonight:
-im never gonna have friends
-im gonna be lonely forever
-no one will ever love me
-my life is a dead end
than i remembered literally everyone's advice and stories on how they had no friends as a teenager and now their life is really good and they made really great friends later on
right now isn't my whole life
i shouldn't expect it to be perfect
i shouldn't expect to have everything figured out
i shouldn't expect to have lived a full life in 14 years
and even though i'm trying to understand this it's still really hard. when i'm in the mindset i know i can't be reasonable and i won't believe myself.
but just try try to remember that this isn't all of life.
there's still so much more to experience and live
there's so much more for you to do
also im really proud of myself right now
like i was really really depressed earlier and instead of sleeping or spiraling into the mindset i just thought about it from an outside perspective. and it really worked. oh my god.
this is really cool
oh my god
i'm really proud of myself
wow
okay sorry
i'm gonna go and sleep now but bye !!
