Thorns. A Soukoku Au.

Apology

It is early in the morning and Chuuya woke up before Osamu. It is quite a day because starting now, he will have the same age as Dazai until his birthday. It is still 4 a.m. so he decided to have a stroll around the block a bit. Spring is early and he Bring his coat, wrapping it around him. He went outside and he is greeted by a cold gush of wind with the smell of newly picked flowers. He walked away the house and went to the park. The sun is rising at this point and he seated himself on one of the swings. He spread out his arms but his coat is getting tight.

An unusual itchness is on his arms and he got the feeling. What if, Dazai did this on the early morning? He did not sleep early so he knew it. He ran to Dazai's home but stopped every now and then. His vision became blurry from all of those tears. He arrived at the block and felt the itchness fade. He did not want to see those things again. He rushed inside and saw Dazai still sleeping. His chest goes upward and downwards so he knew that it is still fine. He just watched Dazai sleeping on the corner of the bed. Many questions keep running from his mind.

Chuuya felt a sudden movement of the bed and found Dazai waking up. His bed head is really messy and looks like an afro.

"Good morning!" Dazai greeted. Not remembering yesterday's happenings.

Chuuya just nodded. Dazai felt it uneasy for a reason that he forgot. He crawled to Chuuya and asked:

"Is there a problem Chuu?"

"Dazai, why do you keep doing it to yourself?"

Chuuya kept his head low to try to hide the tears from his eyes. Dazai just leaned closer and gave a weirded expression.

"What to myself?"

Chuuya got enough of this. He knew that Dazai know what they are talking about. Chuuya looked to Dazai and faced him. Dazai is really weirded out until he remembers it. He thought that Chuuya won't notice but why does he knew?

Chuuya looked to Dazai with a fed-up face and pinned him to the bed. The stinging pain in Dazai's wrists caused him to hiss. Chuuya sat at Dazai's stomach to make him immobile and started to unwrap his bandages.

The last layer of bandages shown blood and Chuuya is not shocked when he saw it. A long cut in his wrist. Chuuya sat there. Not moving and tears start to come out of his eyes.

"What is wrong with you?" the ginger kept calm and stuck his head low.

Dazai did not answer.

"WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT TO HURT YOURSELF SO BADLY?! YOU ARE SO SELFISH AND YOU DO NOT THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE WHILE DOING THIS!" Chuuya screamed at anger and his breathing become faster every second.

They just stared at each other until Chuuya had finally calmed down. His breath is shaky but he managed to say these words.

"w-why do y-y-you do this t-to yourself? D-do you know h-how much it p-pains m-me to see you l-like this?"

Dazai felt his heart shatter into peices. He knew from the start that he would hurt Chuuya by doing this but he did it anyways. He felt like a total jerk now. It is just after his birthday but now I manged to broke his heart. Tears fell silently from his eyes. This is nothing compared to the sobbing male that is seated on his torso. He knew that only big things can make Chuuya cry. He knew his importance to Chuuya.

"I-I'm sorry." he said. He felt the weight is quite lifting up so he sat down and hugged Chuuya and patted him. Chuuya tried to get out of his grip first but stopped, knowing that he is too weak. Chuuya sat down calmly and his head is on Dazai's chest. He can hear Dazai's heartbeat. This thing soothes him. He closed his eyes and relaxed and he heard the words 'I'm sorry'. He can forgive Dazai for now. He closed his eyes and listen to the heartbeat that is now stable. He leaned in and slept.

Dazai knew how much trouble they can have. Looking at his wrists, he finally know what is 'being human' now. He cradled Chuuya in his arms and said:

"I'm sorry for doing this Chuuya. I know it hurts you much and.... thank you for giving me the idea of what I am now."

He kissed the ginger's forehead and placed him on the bed. He noticed the time which is 6 am now. So many things happened after they are together. He looked at Chuuya and observed him. His eyes were closed and he seem to sleep soundly. He layed next to him and closed his eyes. He knew that this love would really cause too much trouble but he won't care about it at all. As long as they are together, he is satisfied of what will come. He knew the trouble that Port Mafia can give to them right. now.

Thinking about that, he shrugged the feeling away. He should be satisfied of what it is now. He knew that the mafia will try to stop them.