Thorns. A Soukoku Au.

Words shaked up

Chuuya opened his eyes and all he can see is white everywhere. It is definitely not his room. He sat up and start to recall everything. His eyes widened as he unbutton the medical clothes but there were no scar. A lady that was not familiar with him opened the door and walked inside. She explained her ability "thou shall not die" and what she did. He asked why she did this and she replied.

"It is all a favor for someone"

After that, she walked away and left the dazzled man. He was released a day after and he bring home a letter and a boquet of flowers. As his mind drifted, he realized that he did not saw Dazai this whole time. It may be already a month after that incident so maybe Dazai is in his room, sulking his brains out. He understood quickly and it seem like it is all not Dazai's fault. Without any means, he forgive him. He walked inside his room and noticed how it is organized. He placed his stuff to the table and went to his room and saw everything is in perfect place on how it should be. Just the way he liked it. He opened the closet and found it organized. He did not see Dazai's clothes but maybe he put it home.

Realization hit Chuuya. Dazai always keep a nice pair of clothes in case of emergencies or if he can't go home. He did ran to the kitchen and opened the fridge.

He is relieved that Dazai still haven't stole his food yet and found some bottles of wine. It look like it is just placed because it is not that cold so he decided to visit Dazai.

He put the bottle of wine in his bag with some food. He plan to cook for Dazai tonight.

That is if......

He reached the man's home and knocked. Nobody answered. He knocked twice.

"Hey, Dazai! Open up!"

Nobody answered. He keep banging the door until his iritation got into him. He kicked the door down only to find a clear and clean apartment.

No furniture. No stuff. No messy clothes. No trash. No razors or knives. No spilled bottle of pills. No rope dangling from the beam. And no Dazai.

He dropped his bag as he continued to smile. Obviously a fake one.

He tried to look inside the bath and bedroom.

No Dazai.

He looked on the window.

No Dazai.

He looked inside the unused container outside the apartment.

No Dazai.

He looked at the other side of the apartment.

Luckily, no Dazai.

Chuuya, tired of this crap, walked inside the apartment and  sat in the middle. He cluched his fists and he lay down.

"Okay Dazai. You won. You are good in hide and seek. Like when we are young."

'Think positive and think all of it like a game. Dazai loved pranking me. This is all just a game.' he tried to say to himself.

"Dazaiiiiiii. Come out."

"This is not funny anymore"

"Oh come on Dazai!"

"I already lost right?"

"D-Dazai. C-come on!"

Chuuya's voice started to shake.

"I s-swear I w-will k-k-kill y-y-you"

"Dazai p-please co-o-ome here"

Tears ran down the singer's face.

"A-all r-r-r-rig-ght. I l-l-lost-t."

He burst into a sobbing mess

"I GET IT DAZAI. I ALREADY FΩCKING LOST OKAY! PLEASE STOP WITH THIS STUPID GAME."

He cluched his fist, rolled into a ball and cried on his knees.

"Yes D-Dazai. I-I already lost. And n-now, w-what I h-h-h-have lost, is y-you."

He cried and cried until eventually, he felt tired. He wanted Dazai to be with him right now. He knew that Dazai will path his head, calm him down and take good care of Chuuya. And he knew that if Chuuya cries, he will grew tired. Dazai will place Chuuya in his lap and will say:

"Rest now Chuuya. I knew you have a long day"

And he did.

The next morning, Chuuya expected to wake up in that place but he woke up in his room. The first thing he notice is that the bouquet is now only white roses and the letter is now two. He walked up to them and got the letter, sitting in his bed. He can't figure out why is he here in the first place and he had the urge to do something.

He called the suicidal machine's name but no one answered. He walked around the place but no one was there but him. He decided to open the letter.

First letter:

Dear Chuu~

Wtf are you doing there? Thank goodness I found you. You still haven't read the letter don't you? You lazy slug. Geez. That is why I love you so much. I left you food on the table. Just warm it up. Okay?

-DazzlingDazai

He smiled a little but he still don't get why there are nothing in that place. He decide to read the second letter.

Second letter

Dear Chuuya,

I am really really really sorry about this. Turns out that it is quite a handful dealing with this crap. Please do not bother to find me. I will be back. We will meet again in a few years. I love you. And remember, I will be always with you. Okay baby cakes?

- Dazai

Chuuya did not understand anything about this. Why would he leave? Is it because of what he did? Why?

Questions start to pile on Chuuya but he left them to be. He trusts Dazai too much. He knew that this is for their own good but yet, he can not let Dazai leave his side.

He contacted everyone on the Mafia until Mori is the one who talked to him.

"Nakahara, he already left us. Why bother?"

Dazai is his partner. He will do anything. He talked to everyone but no one could answer his questions. All they know is that he ran away from that mission. This is all what Dazai left.

In the fact, Chuuya Just don't want anyone knew how bothered he is. He kept a serious face around everyone and always skips the topic 'Dazai'. He wanted to talk to him. Even this time just this time.