Angel

chapter 9

BEEEP BEEEP BEEP!

Another rainy, dampened morning. I kind of miss the warm sunny air back where I used to live. Atleast I'll get to see Andrew. I don't feel like going to school though. I sigh as I think. "Hey, you want to just chill at your house instead of going to school?" I text Andrew. While waiting for a response I take the liberty of doing my hair and productive things I do in the morning.

"Lol sure." Displays across my iPhone's screen.

"Be over in 10 :)." I text with a smile. I slip on my pair of grey vans and I'm on my way. I grab a cookie from Susan who looks odd today. She coughs and seems bent over some. Maybe it's the harsh weather. "Are you okay?" I ask smiling and taking a bite out of the raisin filled cookie.

"Yes, dear. Just not quite feeling up to snuff." She says then coughs again.

"Alrighty" I say smiling, I feel almost cheerful today. I finally make it to Andrew's house. The two story town house that looks similar to mine. I knock on the door and is greeted by his face. The thing I've grown to love the most in my life.

"Hey." he chirps gleefully and opens the door for me. I follow him up the stairs to his room where I carelessly throw my back pack on his bed,  turn around, and wrap my arms around his neck and hug him.

"How was your morning?" I smile in the crook of his neck.

"It's great now." he says and a laugh escapes his lips. "Someone's cheery this morning." I kiss him lightly on the lips and I let go and sit on the bed.

"Yeah." I smile. Today feels like it's going to be a good day. Andrew and I lay in his bed and watch TV, his arm under my head, and my arm around his stomach. When about the time the bus would drop us off I go outside, only to be greeted by ambulances and sirens lining for my house, my heart races as Andrew grabs my hand. Jogging we make our way to my house shortly after the ambulance makes it there.

"Guys, you can't come in here." a man in a uniform stops me on my front steps.

"Sir, I live here. What is going on?" my voice wavers in worry.

"Your aunt has had a major heart attack." The officers eyes glisten with sympathy.

"What, No!... I just saw her this morning!" I say for some reason my voice raising octaves, A stretcher with my aunts seeming weightless body being carried out. Her eyes are closed and she has a breathing mask over her mouth. The only sign that she was breathing was the occasional increase in condensation in the cup like apparatus on her nose and mouth.  I turn around and hug Andrew. I can't see her like this, I just can't. My eyes overflow with tears and Andrew brushes me hair down with his hand to sooth me.  "The one-day I'm fucking happy. Happiness wasn't made for people like me."

"Shh. Now that's not true." Andrew hugs me tighter.

"Angel I'm Going to go to the hospital with Susy." I hear toms voice behind me. "Will you hold down the fort 'til I get back?" His eyes are red and puffy from crying.

"yeah." I mutter barely loud enough. Tom nods his head and climbs into the ambulance. A downpour of rain starts as the ambulance pulls away in the seeming way of a movie, you know where the guy leaves and she's left standing there her hear on her sleeve. This felt worse, I should have offered to take her to the doctor or spent time with her, but no I was selfish and thought about myself only. I'm so sorry... Andrew seemed to notice I needed some space.

"I'll get going, stay strong.." He pulls me into a tight hug, a longing in his voice. I nod my head and let go and wander into the house my legs feeling like to lead blocks.

That evening I sat in the bath and thought, once again my life is tearing itself apart.