unspoken ✧ lams

//5//

My mind went blank on what to put, I thought for a moment before texting him back

'What do you mean?' Although I knew exactly what he was asking

'The kiss, you know what I'm trying to say'

'I don't know, I guess I was just happy you came, that's all'

there was no response after that, all I did was sit by waiting for a message from him but he didn't say anything which worried me,but I didn't want to double text him so I left him alone for the rest of the night, I sat and watched Stranger Things until my mom finally showed up which wasn't until about ten

"Hey kiddo" she smiled but I didn't even look at her,honestly I was a bit mad she left and didn't tell me where she went,she came up and sat beside me "sorry I left you here and didn't tell you where I went,I had something for work" I just nodded and saw her frown but then her face lit up "how was your first day of school!?" She smiled and asked hyper, I shrugged, I didn't know how to react, there's so much I need to tell her but I can't "Any new cute girls" she laughed and winked,that was one thing,I need to come out,but I cant,I just nodded,although I wasn't talking about a girl

"Alex, your straight right?" She gave me a worried look, I nodded shyly

"If you do not tell me, I need to know" she smiled sweetly, I took a deep breath in and my eyes began tearing up, she pulled me into a hug

"I love you Alex, and I don't care if you love sharks,you're my son and if you like men and woman so be it, but what is it, do you like both genders" she looked at my eyes softly, I shook my head no

"Okay,that's fine" she pulled me in her arms again and I felt a few of her tears fall down on my shirt,I pushed her off of me and lightly grabbed both sides of her face,wiping a few tears off of her with my thumb and she smiled softly and looked down "Is there any new cute boys" she smiled and i nodded sheepishly and hugged her again
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I lay there and looked at my alarm clock, it showed 3:57 am I sighed to myself and roll on my back, I need to sleep but thoughts of John flooded my head

Did he feel something when I kissed him?

I asked myself that, although I know it wasn't really a kiss, more of a peck on the cheek

I threw my head into my pillow and closed my eyes, drifting off to sleep.

That night i had a dream

John and i were dating, and we were so happy, out of high school

he was ready to take the plane to France to visit Lafayette

I turned him around and kissed him, slowly

then, i spoke four words for the first time in many years

i looked him in the eyes and spoke

"I love you, John"

But after that, i woke up to the noise of my alarm clock

AN;

What is the actual heck this chapter?

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