unspoken ✧ lams

//7//

I swiftly got out of the car, tears streaming down my face. I approached the door and stomped in, I sighed and looked up at the busy hallway, I grabbed my bag strap tighter and walked to my locker, I grabbed my books and a pencil and closed my locker

"Alex, you okay?" Lafayette approached me with a worried look

I looked up at him and wiped my face with my left hand, I nodded and walked around him to homeroom

What's to get so worked up about?
It's nothing important
We've only just met
It's only just begun

I quickly snapped out of my thoughts and looked up just in time for John to walk in, I looked back down and twirled my thumbs together.

"Alex-" he began

Why did he want to talk to me?
Why here?
Why now?
Why in homeroom?
Why not at my house?
Why not in the car?
Why in the Mr.Washingtons room?
Why?

I looked up at him, my eyes still watering from my tears

"I didn't mean to lead you on like that"

My heart sank

Lead me on?
He held my hand
We cuddled
And we also just met

I had nothing else to do but nod, I closed my eyes and turned my head. The bell rang and I didn't hesitate to leave as fast as I could.

I swallowed a lump in my throat and shakingly breathed in as I approached my next class

An hour
Beside him
No excuses
No words
Just a class
Beside an acquaintance

I entered the room and sat where I was assigned to, waiting for him to arrive

I didn't see him arrive, I didn't see the class, I was lost in my thoughts again

Love?
It's high school
The second day
I'm a boy
He's a man

I clenched my fists together and looked up as the bell rang again, surprised I didn't get yelled at.

I grabbed my books and continued throughout the day, my slow, steady day

before lunch John, once again approached me "Alex, we need to talk", i slammed my locker closed and shook my head, my eyes burned with tears as i thought about a conversation my mom had with my dad the night he left

"Rachel we need to talk"

"there's nothing to talk about"

my brother and I laid in the comfort of our beds and the warmth of our sheets

well my bother did

for a moment i listened to what i could

"Really!? Nothing to talk about! Whats this?"

i still don't know what they were talking about to this day

i heard a sob come from my mom

"Leave me alone"

my dad's body fell on the floor and i heard my moms feet run afar as my dad approached the room

"Don't hurt them" she cried out, i laid on my bed, pretending i was asleep, i watched my dad grab my brothers arm and yank him out

"You little whore" he spat out before slamming the door

i haven't heard a word form him since

"Alex?" i snapped back to reality

i tried to walk around John, but he stepped in front of me

"Alex, whats your problem?"

Whats my problem?
whats his?

all that lead me to bullshit, a waste

another mouthful of lies i will be fed till he leaves

like my dad did my mom

i took another step, again he approached in front of me

"Give me a chance to speak, please" he looked down at me, i agreed

he pulled me outside, we went to lafayettes car, that he, for some reason, left unlocked

"Alex-ii"

he looked up at me, as i did him

we locked eye contact

"Alex, i have something to tell you"

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