The letter

Chapter 17: The fight

It's been a few days since my date happened. And can say a lot has happened. Aicha and Niall has a fight. Yes. It's not talking to each other well bit of course, but nothing is as before.

And it all began with the party, we had been invited to a celebrity socializing party on Saturday and everyone was excited about the party and hoped that it would be fun. But it traced out a bit. Liam was quite so full of all the alcohol. Self I thought it was kind of fun at first. All will be well full at some point in life. But it would be worse. Niall got really drunk and he did some stupid things. He could not quite stop himself. He had no control over himself. It did not end well, and so we all went home around 1 o'clock at night. Zayn, Louis and Liam to their place with the girlfriends and I Harry and Aicha went home with Niall to him.

Niall tried to explain to Aicha how it was and what had happened and that he was sorry about it. When we got home, but Aicha did not receive it. You could clearly see that she was pissed. She was boiling with anger.

I could understand that she was angry Niall was really fucking stupid that night. And try to get away with it when you're drunk. Yeah it's not working properly.

" NIALL I CAN’T STAND LISTEN TO YOUR FUCKING LIES and excuses now when you are DRUNK I will talk to you tomorrow when you are sober okay bye" She said turned around.

And so it went. And I do not know how to do. Now sit here and write to clear my thoughts. I believed before all this happened, when I was still in my room and dreamed about the boys. And that these guys were perfect, never did a wrong step special not Harry but I was wrong, sometimes they did stupid things.  But most of the time they are perfect. Don’t really know what to write more . Trying to clear my head but it does not work so well.  

Harry is becoming more worried about me and thinks I'm stupid that goes in and reads what is written about me. Yesterday I sat in front of computer and cried. I started reading about me and sentences, words like "why like Harry Karin she is so" "ugly" "stupid" "too thin" "slut" "she looks like 14" Know that I should not read but can not, I feel like I deserve it all. Sometimes I want to just leave and go back to Sweden leaving Aicha, the boys and just let everything be as it was before, while sometimes I don't want to leave. But right now, everything feels just crap. Tears ran down my cheeks and formed a pool on the keyboard I sobbing. Harry looked in at me through the door. Now after all this, I know nothing how will all continue? Aicha and Niall? Soon, boys go on tour. I can't take more. Why? everything that has been so good at the date for a couple of days ago. Aicha and Niall who really seemed to have a wonderful time. Now I have to end up writing because the tears start coming down my cheeks again.  -Karin :(

I finished the text with my name and a sad smiley. For it was exactly what I felt I was sad, I was hoping this would not continue and that everything would be fine.