Numbers Never End

Chapter 19

- Hinata's P.O.V -

Soon after I settled down on the sofa for a nightmare filled sleep, I found myself actually falling asleep pretty quickly. Soon after I fell asleep I woke up to dirty hands snaking up my shirt, "H-Hey?!? L-Let go of me!" I began to trash about only to have my arms pinned down by one hand.

"Hush... You don't want your mother and sister to wake up. You know, your sister is no fun any more and now that your home, we can finally have some fun..." I smelt the booze on my step-fathers breath.

"W-What? You've been raping her? L-Let go of me you asshole!" I attempted to wiggle out of his grip as his hands continued down my skinny body, "S-Stop! D-Don't touch me...!" I managed to get a small whimper out.

"Shut up! This is probably the closes you'll get to a human being! Now be quiet and enjoy it~! His voice turn sickly sweet.

I don't remember the rest because I must of have passed out, but the one thing that I do remember is the feeling of him touching me and the feeling of my tears. 

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When I woke up I instantly stripped out of my old clothes and into fresh clothes and brushed my teeth even though I still felt dirty. Even though my mother was making something amazing for breakfast, I felt sick to my stomach, "Can I take Natsu to the police station?"

"That's fine by me but you should eat something Shoyou. You don't look well..." Mother looked over her shoulder and was shocked at my pale face and the heavy bags under my eyes.

"I'll eat in the car when I'm heading back to collage because I'll be going back this time this morning at the latest." Just thinking of eating made me feel like I was going to throw up. Grabbing Natsu's hand I pulled her into my car as our mother shouted good-byes.

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"H-He raped me Natsu..." My voice shook as I clenched the steering wheel, breaking the silence. I needed to tell her, she had to know about it. 

"Hinata... I'm so sorry that I made you come home..." Natsu looked down, playing with her sleeves, the exact same nervous tick that I had.

"It's okay Natsu, once we report him everything will be okay... I promise..." How could I promise her anything, I don't know what's going to happen. All we could do was file report against him and hope for the best.

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I was only half-way back to collage when I started to cry. I felt dirty, I feel horrible. I remember everything now from that dreaded night, the sound of him intertwining with the sound of my pitiful cries for help. I remember the touching, oh God the touching, he touched everywhere. And the smell, my nose was clogged up with the smell of him, drugs and alcohol were not the best combination. I was drowning in my own thoughts and memories. I felt and still feel helpless. I feel mute to the outside world. 

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When I got back to collage, I slipped in unnoticed and I quickly dashed up the stairs to take a shower. I needed to get rid of the feel of him.

Soon after my shower I returned to my baggy clothes and flopped onto the bed, rubbing my cuts, "I probably said this or thought this a lot but I feel so violated..." 

"Hinata? Are you in there?" Kageyama knocked on the door which was slightly ajar.

"Yea...? What do you need?" I mumbled against the pillow, allowing him to come in.

"Is something wrong?" Kageyama sat down on the floor which I began to play with his raven coloured hair.

I nodded my head indicating that everything was not alright with me. Both mentally and physically. 

"Do you mind telling me whats going on or is it classified?" Kageyama took my hand off of his hand and squeezed it. 

I pondered of a second before speaking, I couldn't tell him what actually happened when I was home but I managed to tell him a lie that was close to the truth. As I opened my mouth, all of the words that came out of my mouth sounded foreign, "S-Something bad happened while I was at home.

Why couldn't I tell him the truth, he was my boyfriend, he will understand. Is it because I just don't believe it and if I tell Kageyama he won't believe me as well? "Hinata..." Kageyama reached for my arm but I flinched away.

I didn't mean to flinch away, but I felt like someone was choking me. I felt like I was drowning. Was I having a panic attack? I couldn't know for sure, I couldn't think straight at all... My brain felt like a bottomless sea and my already weak thoughts and mind were like a battered wooden boat that was being destroyed by the soulless sea. My thoughts were about to break, I was about to break. 

I knew that Kageyama called out my name or trying to call out my name but I heard nothing. Thought to my relief my panic attack went away quickly as it came, I may be able to finally think straight but my insides felt jumbled up.

"Hinata, I don't need you to speak but nod if you understand me." Kageyama took my by the hand and ran his thumb over my knuckles which lowed my hysteria levels a little bit. 

I opened my mouth to speak but I just nodded because no sound came out of my mouth. I was still feeling scared, leaning forward I rested my head on Kageyama's chest, my ear right over his heart so that I could listen to it's steady rhythm. Throughout my movements Kageyama never let go of my hand. 

"It's okay Hinata... You're safe now..." Kageyama mumbled, resting his head on my pillow-like hair, "You're okay now... I can promise you that no one and nothing will come to hurt you." 

I just nodded, not exactly listening to what Kageyama was saying. I was just focusing on his heart beat. I needed to focus on one thing at a time so that I could gather my bearings and return to reality and pretend to be perfectly normal. 

"Hinata, please tell me what happened. I'm really worried about you." That one statement broke through my muddled thoughts, I knew that I could trust Kageyama to tell him but just telling what happened just made me feel sick to my stomach. 

"I-I rather not say..." My voice sounded hoarse as if I had been yelling for a long time, "You can't do anything about it now, I already tried or did something about it." 

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Hey guys! I decided to rewrite this whole chapter from what I had in my notebook, so that's what took it so long! And if you haven't read my new book called 'Imprinted on our skin' I recommend that because it is a new book and I hope you like it, I will update it the same day or around the same time as this book! This is Final-Whisper signing off~! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧