Numbers Never End

Chapter 9

- Hinata's P.O.V - 

'Stop lying to them! You better tell them before they find out! You're a freak! How could anyone love you?' The voices in my head range clearly. Agreeing with the voices once again I add one deep cut to my side and make my way downstairs where I pretend that I'm perfectly fine. 

"Here you go Hinata." Suga smiled while handing me a bowl of cereal, "You don't have to eat all of it, just try to attempt to eat half of it. Please you need to eat something... I'm really worried about you."

I nodded meekly, not feeling hungry at all but I wanted Suga to stop worrying about me. So I ate, or rather I attempted to eat some. Even though I barely ate a quarter of it, I felt a little sick.

Half way through my bowl of cereal I began to feel even more sick then I was already. So I abandoned the thought of trying to finish the whole bowl, "Thank you Suga..." 

"You're welcome, I know that you didn't finish it but thank you for trying." Suga smiled which I couldn't return even if I tried.

"I'm going to the library to finish up some minute studying and I don't know how long that will take." I told Suga as I gathered up my supplied that I would need to study a little more. 

"Very well, but please back before midnight or at midnight. " Suga called out as I put on my shoes then opened the door. 

"Okay!" I called back as I closed the door and began the trek to the library. 

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Around 10:10 I decided to leave and head back to the house. Though the only down part is that my phone died while I was studying and it was pitch black out. With those two mixed together with the situation of me walking back alone made my anxiety levels rise drastically. 

Gathering my materials I walk to the door, only to hesitate with opening it. Who knew what was out there.

"Aww...~ Is the shrimp scared of the dark?" A tall figure loomed over me and whispered in my ear with a sickly sweet voice that reminded me of someone...

I just shook my head, unsure what to say. I wasn't lying, I wasn't afraid of the dark I was afraid what is in the dark. But now I was even more terrified of who was looming over me. 

"Are you not going to answer me? Answer me!" The figure yelled in my ear making my flinch while he pulled my hair. 

Not answering again I began or rather tried to wiggle my way out of my captors grip.

"Very well... But you might want to be a little more aware of your surroundings now. Because I'll always e watching..." My captor finally let go of me and I ran, no longer caring about the dark, I just wanted to get back home. 

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As soon as I got back home I rested my hand on my chest right over my heart in hopes of calming down my rapid beating heart. Setting down my bag and plugging in my phone so that it could charge I finally felt that I could relax. 

Trudging my way upstairs I stopped right in front of our door, "Kageyama is going to hate me, it's sorta late... He was or is probably worried about me..." 

'Why would be worried about you? When will you get it that through your thick skull? He. Doesn't. Love. You.' The voices screamed, they have been getting louder and louder with each word. 

Looking down I opened the door and walked in to find Kageyama sitting on my bed, "Hinata? Why did you come home so late?"

"I was at the library and my phone died so I wasn't able to see the time... I'm sorry..." I mumbled to rest, "I-I was also caught up with someone..." I sat down leaving a good amount of space between us. 

"Hinata, what's wrong?" Kageyama pulled me closer and held my tight. 

"It's nothing... I'm just worried about  my test!" I smiled even though I lied, well somewhat lied. I was nervous for my up coming test but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of nothing now. 

"You'll do fine, just trust me." Kageyama said in attempts to make me have more confidence in myself.  

"You really think so?" I cocked my head, skeptical about Kageyama believing in me. 

"I know so..." Kageyama mumbled before rolling over and falling asleep.

Feeling awkward just standing there I wanted to lay next to him yet I didn't. So I settled for sleeping on the desk chair, though I found that I wasn't tired at all and I couldn't force my eyes to close. I was wide awake.

"Kageyama...? Are you awake?" I ask him, secretively hoping that he was awake. 

"Mmm... I'm up now, what do you need Hinata?" Kageyama groaned, I must of woken him up.

"I-I'm sorry if I woke you up... It's not that important anyway, just go back to sleep..." I spoke quietly, regretting opening my mouth up.

"Okay then... But at least come over here and lay by me... It can't be comfortable in that hard chair..." Kageyama reached out his hand to me, wanting me to take it. 

Weighing my choices I finally decided to take his hand, which he continued to pull me on top of him. 

While I was on top of him, he pressed down slightly on the cuts that were embedded into my side. I know that he didn't mean to, but it hurt really bad. Against my will, I flinched. 

"Hinata, what's wrong? Why did you flinch?" Shoot, Kageyama noticed that I flinched. How do I play it off...? 

"It's nothing Kageyama...! It must of been your imagination!" I smiled in attempts to change his mind even though I knew that he was no longer falling for my stupid lies that I told all of the time. 

"Cut the crap Hinata, tell. Me. Whats. Wrong." Kageyama snapped at me, though his voice was so low that it sounded like a growl. 

Knowing that I could no longer lie my way out of these kind of situations, I told the truth or rather I whispered the truth, "I-I cut..." 

"Pardon? Could you repeat that?" Kageyama didn't hear me the first time and it was hard enough just to say it. 

"I-I cut...!" I spoke loudly, almost yelling it out so that the whole house hold could know my dark secret. Just as I looked at Kageyama I watched his eyes go wide. 

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