Numbers Never End

Chapter 11

- Hinata's P.O.V - 

I finally told someone, I finally can trust someone. Or can I? Even though I told Kageyama one of the many dark secrets that I only know, I still didn't fell safe. I voices didn't cease. I still have an urge to cut and even kill myself. But all of my problems were lifted off my shoulders for a little to only come crashing back down with even more problems for me to stress about. 

"What if Kageyama tells the others? The'll most likely laugh at me, no on cares about me..." I thought, even more depressed then I was a few minutes ago. Why did I ever even tell him, if I didn't I might still be depressed but no one would suspect a thing. 

'Ding-Ding-Ding~! You finally got something right you idiot! You're on a roll' The voices spoke loud and clear. 

Sighing I stood up and left the dark room that I called my bedroom. I didn't want to be alone in a room with only my thoughts to accompany me. Being in a room filled with people and my thoughts yelling at me was enough. But being alone was to much for me.

Making my way downstairs I found my mess that I made almost two nights ago now neatly organized and I found Suga leaning over the kitchen island drinking coffee, "Good Afternoon Hinata."

"Hey Suga, have you seen Kageyama?" I said as I began to put my papers in my messenger bag.

"Kageyama? He went out a few hours ago, he said that he'll be back in a hour from now. Why do you ask?" I felt Suga's eyes follow me as I began to get ready to leave.

 "Well, I have to turn in a few papers and worksheets to my professor then I have to go the the library because one of my friends promised me that she'll help me to study for my test that's coming. And last time I came home late Kageyama was still up and he told me that he was worried about me so I don't want that to happened again." I smiled sheepishly, putting on my shoes. 

"Ah, very well. Oh! I should have you know that Tanaka and Noya are forcing us to have a party tonight. So don't be surprised to see a lot of random strangers here when you come back!" Suga sighed, setting down his mug. 

"I'm okay with that, just make sure that no one goes into my rather our room!" I said grabbing my keys and my phone which was charging. 

Suga laughed then nodded, "Got it, no one is allowed in your guys room! Don't come back so late! You have no clue what could me lurking in the shadows!"

Rolling my eyes I rested my hand on the doorknob, "Yes mom, I'll be careful." 

"Hey-!" Suga began to scold me but I left quickly before he could say another word. 

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"Okay! I think I got it!" I said to my blonde friend who's name was Yachi.

"Hinata hush! You're in a library, you need to be quiet!" Yachi whisper-yelled attempting to quiet me down.

"Sorry Yachi... But! I think I got the vocabulary down, so could you please test me once more? Then we can go home." I exclaimed cracking my knuckles. 

I looked over at Yachi who was practically asleep, "Finally, but this is the last time! I'm tired and I want to go home..."

I just nodded in agreement, awaiting the test to come.

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After the practice test that Yachi gave me I practically aced it. Well besides two words which I got the definition mixed up, thought that was better then when we first started.

"Here, let me walk you back home. It's pretty late." I said as we were sitting on the front steps on the library.

"No, no that's not needed. Kiyoko said that she'll come and pick me up. But do you need me to walk you back home?" Yachi said, looking up at the stars, she knew that I was scared of what was hidden in the dark. 

"N-No, I'll be fine... Home is basically a straight shot from here." I smiled, even though I was scared. 

"Very well, just call me if you get lost or anything bad happens." Yachi said as she began to walk to Kiyoko's car. 

"I will!" I said, getting up myself and beginning my walk back home. 

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Even before I was half a block away from home, I could hear the music, "Great... I knew that Tanaka and Noya were going to have a party, but this is a little to much..." 

Once I opened the door, I was greeted with a mess, "Just another mess that I'll have to clean up because everyone will have a hangover tomorrow." Sighing I began to look for Kageyama. Though I found Tanaka and Noya drunk with a few other people who I did not know, nothing out of the ordinary there. Then I found Daichi and Suga making out, odd, but I knew that they both liked each other so I wasn't bothered my it. But at the end of my search I didn't find Kageyama, but oddly enough, Tsuki and Yamaguchi were interacting with a few people. I never took them as party people.

Suddenly feeling very aware of everyone pushing and shoving. I began to snake my way thought the crowd just so that I could make it to the steps, then our bedroom. Yet snaking my way thought the crowd took longer than I thought, side-stepping drunk people, stepping over people who were passed out and trying to avoid the people who were making out which was hard, boys with girls, girls with girls and boys with boys. It seemed like everyone was kissing someone. 

Finally enter our room I found Kageyama throwing a volleyball to himself, "Why aren't you downstairs partying like the rest?" 

"I could be asking the same to you." Kageyama said, not looking at me.

"I'm not a big party goer..." I mumbled sitting on my bed, watching Kageyama, "Are you mad at me?"

"I'm also not a big party goer. And no, I'm not mad at you." Kageyama looked over at me, no longer tossing the volleyball, "Why do you ask?"

"No reason, you just seem a little distant at the moment..." I mumbled, getting up and walking over to Kageyama's bed before I curling up against him.

"I'm sorry HInata, I didn't mean to worry you." Kageyama kissed the top of my head.

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