The Above Cover Agent

.:{Chapter 70}:.

Declan's POV

     My heart shattered when I saw her lips top his. I could feel my heart break into millions of pieces.

     My mind mediately traveled to the thought of the pain and how she must have felt when iIkissed heather.

    It hurts so much of course I deserve this I rejected her. I am horrible I don't deserve her.

     I slowly walked away my chemistry class, it was empty and school won't start for about 45minutes.

     I pulled out of the chairs and sat down sighing out loud as a single tear slid down my cheek.

     I repetitively ran my fingers through my hair as a soft whimper escaped my lips.

     I placed my elbows on the desk as I buried my face in my hands trying to hold in the unbearable pain.

     I continued to think about her beauty and especially how she must have suffered and how she still must suffer.

     My fists clenched to the side at the memory of Elliot telling me about raping my mate.

     More tears began to form and fall down my cheeks as I buried my face deeper into my hands trying to forget.

     I continued to repeat the words "I don't deserve her" again and again in my mind each time shattering a small part of me.

     "Of course you deserve her she's our mate." My wolf whimpered to me in our mind link.

     "No, I don't I don't deserve her I rejected her I am a terrible person." I cried out in the mind link.

     "Don't say that Declan she was made for us!" My wolf cried out once more.

     "Obviously the moon goddess made a mistake can't you see that Nathaniel?" I questioned.

     "We both know that's not true she is ours she kissed us back!" My wolf cried once more.

     "And then she woke up and left us she is gone!" I screamed in the mind link.

     I cut off our link before I could hear or listen to any more whimpers or cries.

     I laid back down on the desk table as more tears began to fall I couldn't get her out of my head.

     She was like a drug she was so addictive so beautiful so perfect but not mine.

     I cried out once more at the thought of losing her and that I was at fault for her loving someone else.

     I looked down at my hand and extended my fingers transforming them as claws.

     I looked down at my chest and then back at my claws as I began to claw my chest violently.

     The pain was too unbearable it was too much. I can't do this I deserve to die I hurt the person who was made for me.

     I continued to claw my chest as more tears began to spill my eyes becoming all red and puffy.

     I began to claw my chest with both of my hands as I scratched my chest and arms.

    Blood began to fall as a large poodle of blood pooled out and dripped to the floor making puddles of blood.

     I fell to the floor in my own puddle of blood as my eyes began to fill with black dots.

     Before my entire vision became black I saw a figure run up to me. Before I knew it I fell into a dark and scary abyss.