drawings

3

I felt my face heat up,
"haha, why me?"
"because you're way too cute not to come back and see! when do you get off?"
"uh," I scratched the back of my head nervously, "at 2, why?"
"we're gonna go get something to eat, cool? See ya at 2."
I watched in awe as the guy walked out.

I mentally slapped myself for forgetting to ask for his name.

The rest of my shift was spent happily waiting for 2 to come around. 
Blurryface was being really quiet, which was extremely concerning, but I blew it off in hopes to not worry myself into another stupid breakdown. 
I shook my thoughts away, choosing to enjoy the silence in my head. 

At 2, as promised, the boy came back. 
He smiled, "ready to go?"
I nodded, and followed him to his car. 
Once we got into his car, I gasped in realization, "before i forget, AGAIN, what's your name?"
"Dun. Josh Dun." he smirks, then turns his car on. 

Shortly after he pulls into a Taco Bell drive thru. 
Josh looked nervous when ordering our food, and when we left the drive thru after he looked relieved. 
Josh seemed mysterious, cryptic even. I was completely intrigued by him. 

We ate together, listening to the radio. 
"Josh?"
"what's up?"
"have you heard me sing before?" my voice was almost a whisper.
Josh's body sort of froze in place for a little, but then he relaxed. 
"Yeah, I have. On your trampoline, right? It's really nice."

I smiled, but hid it and said a quiet thank you and turned to face the window. 
Josh stops in an area I recognize from my high school days, the place you used when you wanted to fuck. 

"Josh, why are we here?"
"It's just a little fun."
"Josh, please." I say exasperated. 
Josh sighs, but starts his car back up and leaves the area.

He says nothing to me as I get out. I walk into my room, and begin drawing to try and distract myself. 
No one wants you unless it's for a quick fuck. I hear Blurry laugh. 
I cant believe you thought someone actually wanted you! he laughs harder. 

My drawing ceases. 
But it will be okay, Tyler, just give in to me. I'll help you. I'll make it better. 
He was right. 
It had been awhile since the last time I gave in anyways. 

Trigger warning

I sauntered off into my bathroom, and slid open a drawer. 

3rd person

Tyler drags the razor across his wrist 3 times before letting it go a few times across his hip. 
What he didn't know was that his soul mate had always been able to see when he would cut himself.
They would appear as long red lines, but you could obviously tell what they were from.