In Love With My Mobster Best Friend (mxmxm)

THIRTY-FOUR: UNDERSTANDING

Media: When We're High - LP

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Jared's POV

I stared down at Coe, sprawled with his arms on either sides of his head, one of his hands fisting the corner of a pillow lightly, and the other was curled slightly. I couldn't help the faint smile on my face as I reached out to touch his fingers, circling his palms. 

He didn't even stir. He must be completely worn out. I shook my head slightly when he let out a cute snore. 

Cute?! God. I was becoming such a fucking sap. 

"So... What is this, boss?"

I snorted at the question from my right hand man. Coe still didn't show any signs of waking up and I felt a spread of warmth and contentment go through my entire being, and I held my breath. 

What the fuck was happening to me? 

"You tell me." I muttered, running my fingers through Coe's hair slowly, ignoring my palpitating heart.

After a day of sensuous tumble in the very crumpled sheets and my right hand man picks this question as the first question to break the silence between us?

I thought I hired a highly observant an intuitive man. Clearly, I might be mistaken.

"Should I... leave?" Heath asked, shifting uncomfortably in his own bed on the other side of Coe, eyeing the bedroom door.

I frowned, "Why?" The idea of it irritated me. 

"I figured you just needed to know how sex is like between two men." He shrugged, "Now that you've got it figured out..." There was a bitterness in his voice that I caught, only because I had spent enough time with Heath to know how well he conceals his true feelings around others.

"You're going to leave him to me?" I raised a brow.

Heath swallowed, and I could see the anger in his eyes at my words, but otherwise said nothing.

I chuckled, "Tell me, Heath. How much do you like Coe? Do you love him?"

Strangely, I was feeling a lot calmer and receptive of our situation than I expected. The anger, the tension, the frustration and the jealousy that I had been feeling all month long seemed to have dissipated. I wondered if I just needed to get one good sexual workout like I just had to return back to normal. 

Probably not. I am willing to bet an arm that it has something to do with the man lying between me and my right hand man. 

Heath shrugged, and I frowned, my irritation for him growing, but I wasn't angry, not yet anyway.  

"The truth. Tell me the truth." I stared at him, "Lie, and I'll put a bullet through your head." I glanced down at Coe to make sure he was still asleep. I don't think he would appreciate it much if I threatened Heath like that again, "Coe deserves that much, don't you think?" My voice went slightly softer when I looked down at him. 

I startled slightly at my words. I think I was afraid of this. I was afraid that when I finally had a taste of Coe, if I had Coe the way he wanted me, it would turn me soft. Make me vulnerable. Perhaps that was one reason why I have been pushing him away for so long. I was afraid I'll change everything that I am  just to have Coe. 

"I'd rather take a bullet through the head then." Heath cleared his throat stiffly. 

I understood his feelings there and then.