STOCKHOLM ➵ tomlinson

twenty five

if any of you like marvel/tom holland/spiderman im starting a new social media story!! i think it'll be easier to update :)

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JOSEPHINE
wednesday, 8 days later

In my bed, I rest with a brown teddy bear and nothing else. Water slips through my eyes and my mind aches with the truth. The worst thing about life is that no matter how harsh the truth is, it'll always be better to accept it than to live in a world of lies.

Ironically, the last two days have been smiles and sun; I can't remember a time before when my cheeks didn't hurt from me grinning too much.

He took me to the beach and then the carnival. I hadn't ever been to the carnival before because my family never wanted to take me. I was blessed to have the selfless boy give up his time for me, somebody who had never been worth it for anyone else before. He told me my heart and my soul was gold that only the valiant achieve.

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"Jos," he whispers. My eyes are glued to the carnival rides flashing as they glow against the natural evening light. "Look at me."

We're on the ferris wheel and there are only two things that I can concentrate on.

One was the experience itself. The people, the laughter, and the love all around made my heart swell.

The second thing was that I knew he kept looking at me the entire night. His breath is slow and he speaks softly.

He pulls my head to look at his face in the dim moonlight. I quickly look down at my fingers which suddenly appear to be interesting. Within a second, he pushes my head up with two fingers gently, and I see a world in his eyes.

"Josie, listen," he says. "I know things have been weird with you, with me, a-and even with him. You know who I'm talking about I'm not gonna say it. But, I need you to know something. Before I tell you though, I have to admit to you something else. I don't want to take advantage of you; I'd never do that to you- or to anyone."

And we're locked in eyes.

I notice the stars and galaxies floating around, and the stories and passion he has to share. I drown in them until I'm reeled back into focus.

"I like you, and I-I-I like you a lot.. You're the most fucking beautiful person inside and out. You don't see how clean and easy you make everyone feel. You protect everyone and wish for justice, even upon those who have wronged you. I will never understand how strong you have to be to want freedom and fairness for even the hurtful. Not everyone can do that, and it makes sense if they can't. But you- you step beyond that. Your heart and soul is pure gold. And I appreciate you so much. You're a rainbow with layers to see but only for the few."

With a long blank stare, I rest my glance on his. His light smile slowly fades. But, I realize nothing else matters. Because it is enough for me. He's enough for me. He's more than enough. Nobody ever took care of me and treated me so well without even knowing me.

I pull him in slowly, and I hover above his lips. I savour the warm air radiating. Brightly, the moon reflected off our faces. And all anyone could see is a couple without any worries in the damn world, because they were in their own.

He pulls away and smiles, and I reciprocate. But his grin fades again. I know this is the storm after the sun.

"Louis is seeing his ex again.."

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My heart wasn't supposed to break at that. My lungs weren't supposed to cave in and stop working. It was supposed to be okay.

I had Michael, and Louis has his girl.

But now, I'm curled up in Michael's bed, hiding away from the world.

hiding away from all worlds with a lump throbbing in my throat and a rock on my chest.

My chest heaves up and down but nothing will work. I'm suffocating.

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agh !! i havent written in so long i forgot the style. i miss you all thank you for being patient 💖