I Need U

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Namjoon remember when i was sat on the cliff.

I cried for an eternity.
My vision blurry.
Not hungry.
Not sleeping.
Not eating.
Not drinking.

Not wanting to be awake.
Not wanting a career.
Not wanting dreams.
Not wanting my past.
Not wanting my family.
Not wanting to be alone.

Wanting you by my side.
But that would never happen.
You had her.
She had you.
I had no one.

No one to rely on.
No one to talk to.
No one to tell my secrets to
Anymore.
No one for support.

I wanted no future, but
I wanted a future with you.

I wanted my life gone.
I wanted to be consumed by fate.
I wanted to be taken by death.

If only i could bring you back to me.
But i couldnt.
It was impossible.
You were gone.
With her.

Like my future.
I was gone.
Never to reappear.

I jumped.
I fell.
Faster than lightening.
I hit the ground.
Harder than the earths mantle.

I no longer had a life.
I no longer had worries.
I no longer had stress.
I no longer had depression.
I no longer had anxiety.

I was free.

Goodbye namjoon.
Goodbye family.
Goodbye world.

I don't regret it, because I finally had my life in my hands, I could finally choose my destiny. But I choose the path I wanted to take. I wanted no life for the rest of eternity. But I've been placed into a never ending time loop.

I do not, will not regret this.