your last

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It almost one month I'm working here with Mingyu. I feel like I am slowly losing all the progress that I made which is to move on from him. He made me think that I am more than what I actually am and that is very not fair for my heart. I am trying really hard but I can't pretend it does not hurt when it really does.

I stepped into my house after I put the red converse that I wore just now on the shoe shelf. suddenly I heard my mom called me from the kitchen. I immediately go to see her.

"Hey, mom" I open the fridge to take a cup of cold honey water that I made this morning. Sit at the dining table while waiting for her to tell me why did she call me just now.

"Wait after I am done cooking okay? a little bit more"

"No problem" while connecting my phone to the wifi so that I can watch the new episode of Going Seventeen.

After a while, mom put the dishes that she cooked on the table and a sit beside me. I pause the video and look at my mom curiously.

"yea?"

"How's your work going?" asked mom with her calm smile. My mom is very beautiful.  People always said that I got my smiles from her. I'm so lucky to have her gummy smile.

"Everything is alright but next week would be the last week before the school starts"

"hm that's what we need to discuss about"

"about what?"

"We are moving to Seoul, like finally because dad got a new job there. I already arranged about your transfer to your new school" she told while waiting for my reaction.

" Really?! are you kidding me, mom?" I was too shocked to know what's my feelings are. happy or sad?

"I am not Honey, you should ask your father if you don't believe me"

"Okay okay" It's hard to believe this because I always wanted to go to Seoul since I was little but I never wanted to move from this place.

Honestly, I really don't want to go because of Mingyu. He treated me so well that I feel like I am very special to him. I don't know what is it but I love spending this almost one month period with him. It was the happiest time I have ever felt in my life. I am not really sure if I still able to feel that moment and feelings after this.

but least I can run away from Mingyu, right? and I would not get hurt seeing him anymore. 

"go take a bath now and come here back to have a dinner okay? we will need to pack our stuff a week earlier."

;-;

It's lunchtime and I wanted to ask Mingyu to go for lunch, like usual. but today Mingyu seems to be very, like very busy and focus on his phone. For sure he is calling his girlfriend because it is obvious. He keeps saying 'babe' and 'love you' and stuff. So yea I don't want to disturb him calling with her LOVELY girlfriend. So I just let him be.

I went to the entrance door of the store and turn the signboard from 'open' to 'closed' because we are closed for half an hour at lunchtime. I took my way to the reading corner and sit on the chair given to the customers. I decided to read a novel instead because I have no mood today. He just ruined it.

I take out the novel that I've been recently read which is 'ME BEFORE YOU' by Jojo Moyes that was suggested by one of Seventeen's member. I don't really know if I still can focus on reading this book after what I just through but let's just go with it. I really need something to do other than being an emo-shit. Well, I am being an emo-shit right now lol.

After a while, suddenly my vision is blocked by so a pair of hand. I was too shocked that I wasn't moved.

Surely it is mMingyu because he is the only one in the store because uncle Kim is not here today. he went to his son's place or something, I am not sure. so it just me and Mingyu in this store.

This pair of hand's owner smells like a very good damn sweet things that I don't even know how to describe. it just smells so good.

"Mingyu is that you?" asked me carefully to make sure that is him.

"Hahaha hey what are you doing here and why you didn't tell me its already lunch time?" said him as he sits close beside me. Like very very close.

"Hm nothing much it just yea I saw you busy with your phone so, I don't want to disturb you calling with your girlfriend, I guess."

"No, I wasn't texting with my girlfriend plus I don't even have a girlfriend," he trying to reach my hand but then I pushed them.

Did you just state that don't have a girlfriend? are you kidding me?

But actually, I never asked him anything about his girlfriend or made him know that I knew the truth. I just let everything that he did to me happens. I don't want him to stop.

This is just so hurt. I guess this is why you always treat me like this because you think that I don't know that you already had someone special other than me. I wish this could be over now.

You are one of the most obvious couples in our school and you expect me to unknow that? Am I that easy for you to fool me? This is too much.

"Oh okay then," said me as I immediately turn my head around because I really don't like where this conversation is going to be. I don't want to hear his lies anymore.

"Why are you like this?" asked him while looked into my eyes.  He put his hand on my shoulder trying to persuade me.

"I don't know, but I don't feel well today," said me while trying to hold my tears.

"You know what? I really don't like seeing you like this. What about I sent you to your house? I will tell uncle Kim that you're not feeling well"

Mingyu can you stop doing this to me...

"It's okay, I will call my mom to pick me"

"Alright then, if that what you want. I hope you are okay"