your last

f i f t h t e e n

Today is just one of those days, where I miss him terribly and there is nothing that I can do about it. I need to be strong for the sake of my parents and myself, of course. I should thank my parents for doing this to me, moving to Seoul is a good idea for me to find a new life. Actually, I know that they are really worried about me. I keep locking myself in my room for weeks and I talk less, I eat less, and I was not the usual me. The happy me since I knew him.

Mom and dad said they saw my self-changes since I started working at the bookstore. I am totally different from the old me. I am sure mom knew that it must be because of Mingyu.

Even if we can't be together in the end, I am glad that he was a part of life. It's ironic how our hearts can still get hurt by something we've seen coming. I know it was coming but look at me now? I deserve.

"Are you done? make sure you bring all the documents before you leave. I am sorry I can't send you today" mom apologized while putting the coffee jug on the dining table.

Mom and dad cannot send me today because they both need to be on time in their office today since they are new there.

I don't really mind because I want to be alone.

"Mom, starting from today, can I just walk to school? Mom and dad don't need to send me any more" I said, but yea in an empty intonation. It doesn't sound happy at all.

"Tae, you know that we couldn't send you only for a month. After that, I can send you every day. Please don't be mad at me " dad replied. They look guilty.

"No mom, it just I don't want to burden you both anymore" I explained.

"If that what you want but after this one month, if you want us to send you, just tell us okay. We will always be here for you" she hugged me.

"sure mom"

I don't put any makeup on my face today like how I used to in my old school. I just don't feel like it. Well, there's no mingyu anymore for me to interest.

I wear the new pink pastel sweater that I bought it online. It has 'knj' words on it which means Kim Nam Joon. Well, we need something good to start a good day.

Hopefully, it's going to be a good day.

;-;

The teacher in charge gave me my timetables and yea those papers documents that I need to keep with my new locker number and the key.

I went to my new locker to put my books and stuff.

I can see everyone is looking at me, whispering and stuff. I guess they are judging me. Hm, I guess that is normal? I tried to ignore them but then my eyes attracted to a guy.

He looked deep into my eyes but when he saw that I noticed him, he looked away and left.