"Deleted things, I never meant. So now I'll say the things I never sent"
- " The wimp ?" Ciel repeated.
Ciel's navy blue eyes widened , shooting Alois a baffled glare . He had expected to be surprised by what Alois would say , but this revelation had him completely dumbstruck.
- "Remember now, eh ?"Alois snarled.
Everything came back to him in a blur, his mind dazed and wandering in the mist of bitter memories. Ciel didn't recall everything but the main information came back to him . Alois was the boy he used to bully back in High School with Sebastian and his friend Charles .
- " I think..."
Ciel's selective memory had hidden this part of his life into the darkest corners of his mind . Being reminded of it had left him speechless . Was he even supposed to say something ? He knew that pathetic and belated apologies would probably just irk the blond even more .
- " You "think" ? " he seemed outraged.
Thanks to him , Alois' adolescence must have been a living hell. The blonde's sorrowful expression awakened in Ciel a sentiment of unutterable sadness and guilt.
- " I'm sorry.." he said , even though he was well aware awkward apologies wouldn't erase all the damage he'd done.
He stared at the blond for a long time , a scary question forming on his lips . What if he was part of the reason Alois was here today ? What if he destroyed Alois' life ?
- " Why aren't you beating the hell out of me ? " Ciel dared to ask , puzzled.
He was expecting Alois to try and achieve revenge but he laughed instead , serenity beaming from his gaze . Scary how quickly his emotions seemed to change.
- "Do you really think I want to hit you because you used me as a punchingball in High School ? " he asked , still chuckling.
- "That's what I would do . " Ciel confessed, ashamed of his past self .
He remembered trying to please Sebastian and the other cool kids , just wanting to fit in.
- " I'm not that kind of person." Alois shrugged.
He vaguely recalled bullying a boy with Sebastian , but not much more than that . And four years later here he was, facing " the wimp ".
-" Why are you here? " Ciel had to ask this question.
This urge was stronger than him. Before he walked out of Alois' life, he had to know if he was involved in the blond's internment or not .
- "Well, let's just say that after being hit a countless number of times and treated like shit by three assholes , I made a suicide attempt, then two, then three. But what these three idiots didn't know is I've had an incurable disease ever since I was a child . I guess the doctors got tired of stitching my wrists and decided that I would be safer in a psychiatric center. "He explained casually , as if he weren't outweighing years of sorrow and misery .
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Safety Pin ; Cielois
Fanfiction" It was at this moment, when you smiled at me, that I understood that my life wasn't over. That even though my heart was crumbling, you were there, with your smile, ready to safety pin all the broken pieces back together. It's this smile that made...
