Safety Pin ; Cielois

Chapter 20 - Perfect

I open the door of my apartment and Alois follows me inside. None of us speak, as if there was a tension between us. But I no longer want to listen to my mind so I let myself go for once and I understand what is happening.

I lay my hands on Alois' narrow hips and draw him against me to kiss me once again. Our lips graze against eachother and softly play together without actually connecting to each other. I can feel Alois' warm breath on me and it disturbs me even more. Carnals desires are taking ahold of me and I have a hard time refraining them.

Alois puts an end to this little game by catching my face with both hands, forcefully. A languorous, long kiss ensues. The worst thing is that I like it and that I answer to it right away , slamming Alois against the wall to deepen this kiss.

A shiver runs down my lower back, where Alois has lodged his hands. Mine gently raise the tee-shirt he's wearing and traces small arcs on his exposed skin. I can feel his fingertips brushing me, slowly prosgressing lower and lower.

- Alois, wait, I ...

He smiles , knowing very well what I was thinking.

- It's okay. I'm aware you're virgin on that side. He says without any trace of embarassment.

I almost choked at his lack of tact. Did it mean he was he was sure that I would... bottom ? I did not dare ask him this questions.

- We'll go to our rhythm, okay? He asks in a soothing voice.

Strangely, all my embarrassment is faded, perhaps because I'm lost in the moment. It's a good thing he's not embarassed talking like that because I sure am.

Alois flashes a little smile and continues stroking me with his deft fingers , shortening my breath.

An overwhelming sensation is invading every part of me. It's hard to understand everything that is going on, to follow everything . I think I don't realize what we are doing and right now , I don't care . The excitement is rising and I can't deny it.

I lead Alois into my room and gently push the blond on my bed , straddling him , while he takes off my shirt and his own.

I feel the heat of his body against mine and I no longer control anything, my whole body is boiling . I want to do so many things , but I don't know how and it's almost frustrating.

- Stop thinking , Ciel . Alois whispers in a sultry voice , cutting my breath for an instant.

I stare at him a moment . He's so beautiful all flushed like this , hair dishelved , cheeks crimson and eyes hazy , his pink lips slightly agape . I want to devour him.

This is when I really realize that I am astride Alois, the guy I made suffer and yet , his legs are wrapped around my pelvis and the lump in his jeans is quite important.

I know he wants it as much as I do, and yet I cannot help but tell myself that I'm not gay.

I nod my head gently and starts covering his neck in dainty kisses. I can feel him trembling under my body.

- I-I'm sorry for having to offer you this body. Alois mutters, avoiding my gaze.

I gently lift his chin up to make him look at me in the eyes

- You don't have to excuse yourself. You are perfect. Let me prove it to you.

Who thought I could say such cheesy things ? He had changed me. Alois gives me a radiant smile and resumes to appropriating my body.

My accelerating breath is immediatly cut off when I feel his hands traveling towards the fly of my jeans.

Alois notices that I tensed and kisses my torso , almost making me squirm under his subtle touch. Then I let myself go again, my breathing deep and laboured.