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another boy finds you self harming (part two , ashton)

When the two of you reached the bottom step, you watched Ashton's head snap up, smiling before noticing Luke's expression. "Uh,Luke, what are you doing?" he asked, coming a bot closer to you two. "Ashton, you have to remain calm okay, the last thing (Y/N) needs is her boyfriend to freak out at her." He turned to you. "I'm sorry (Y/N), but this can't go unnoticed." Your head fell, embarrassment coming over you. "Why would I freak out?" Ashton had a nervous chuckle leave his lips. Luke glanced at you, gesturing you forwards with a head nod. You let the burning red arm come into view. Aston's eyes fell to the intense red lines, his whole expression faltering. No longer was he oblivious to your little secret. "You guys need some time to talk this out," Luke cut in quietly. "I'll talk to you later guys." Neither of you watched him leave. You couldn't tear your eyes off of Ashton, who was shaking his head and turning away from you. He sat down on one of the kitchen stools, hiding his face in his hands. He was much more upset than you were expecting. But then again you would be pretty upset too if someone you loved had done something so awful to themselves. "When were you planning on telling me (Y/N)," he mumbled, peeking out at you briefly, waiting for an answer. "I-I.... I wasn't...." Your answer was just loud enough that he would hear it. "So you're meaning to tell me, if Luke hadn't found you, this would keep going?" All you could do was nod. "And what if you went too far (Y/N). What if one day you went too far? I wouldn't know what to do with myself. Hell, I should've noticed earlier!" Ashton's anger was not towards you anymore, it was towards himself. "I should've noticed dammit." You immediately felt an overwhelming feeling of guilt. And then you just broke. "Ashton I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. I should've said something but I was scared! My last boyfriend knew and you know what he did? He left! I didn't want that to happen to you because I love you too much to see you walk out the door because of this. I'll try to stop just please... Don't leave me like the rest." It was as if you could hear Ashton's heart actually breaking. He was speechless, looking upon you with hurt in his eyes. Getting up, you watched him stride over to you, taking your arm and gently pressing his lips to the wound before hugging you to his chest."I'm not like the rest of them baby..." You sniffled into his shoulder, resting in his arms. "I promise babe... It's okay... We're gonna work together on this okay? We're gonna get you better."