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One Shot #5

P's Note: All about music ang mga susunod na story. I think? Ewan. Basta. Walang aasa. Pati ako hindi umaasa. XD Anyways, after a long time of random ideas. I fixed a new one! :>

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One Shot Title: Words I Couldn't Say

♪ "~Hmmmm...

In a book, in a box in the closet

In a line, in a song I once heard

In a moment on a front porch late one June

In a breath inside a whisper beneath the moon~" ♪

Hmm. I picked the right one.

♪ "~There it was at the tip of my fingers

There it was on the tip of my tongue

There you were and I had never been that far

There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms

And I let it all sleep away.~" ♪

I picked the right song to sing. If you were in my position, I guess you'd pick the same song to sing. Or maybe, another kind but with the same meaning.

What's my position you ask? Presidente lang naman. Dejoke. Well, I'm in the midst of crying. 

Nope. Just joking. I'm actually just here to teach you in love kids a lesson. It's something about love. (Duh?!) Something important. 

This song, if you listen to it properly. You would understand the feeling the singer was feeling while he was singing this song. It's sad and lonely at the same time. It's like he doesn't want to let his lover go but, in the end, he let go. 

♪ "~What do I do now that you're gone?

No back up plan, no second chance

And no one else to blame

All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldn't say.~" ♪

Whatever you feel for this person, as long as you think you have hope, why do you have to be shy? Why do you have to hide it when you can tell him/her? It's a risk you have to take. 

If you think that it's the right time even though you're in the wrong place, why hold it back? Say it. Accept the answer you're going to receive from him/her. 

Kasi, it doesn't mean that you told him/her that you love them .. they'll love you back. Pwedeng oo, pwedeng hindi.

♪ "~There's a rain that will never stop fallin'

There's a wall that I've tried to take down

What I should have said just wouldn't pass my lips

So I held back and now we've come to this

And it's too late now~" ♪

You don't have to be scared or jealous or whatsoever. You haven't said a word yet, am I right? Tell him/her how you feel. Kahit gaano man kalamig 'yang kausap mo, it'll go to their minds somewhat later and then they'll think, "Tama ba ung ginawa ko?"

Sometimes, it's better to take risks than to live yourself hanging.

Now, maybe you're kind of asking why I'm telling you all of these. Haha. You'll hear the weirdest and dumbest story ever.

♪ "~What do I do now that you're gone?

No back up plan, no second chance

And no one else to blame

All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldn't say

Yeahh. Are the words I couldn't say.~" ♪

I loved a person very dearly, lagi kong iniisip na may pag-asa ako sa kanya. And wow. Dumb, right? I'm only his friend, I know. 

Alam kong wala akong pag-asa sa kanya dahil may girlfriend na siya. The day when I decided to tell him how I felt was the day that I would break to pieces.

Hindi ko naisip na pwede pa lang mangyari ang hindi mo inaasahan. Tanga kasi ako e. Tanggap ko un. 

♪ "~Should have found a way to tell you how I felt

Now the only one I'm tellin is myself

What do I do now that you're gone?

No back up plan, no second chance

And no one else to blame.~" ♪

I couldn't take it. And that's why .. I died. 

♪ "~All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldn't say

(What do I do now that you're gone?)  What do I do.

What do I say. (No back up plan, no second chance)

And no one else to blame

All I can hear in the silence that remains

Are the words I couldn't say...~" ♪

I regretted dying. Mahal na mahal ko siya e. Higit pa sa pamilya ko. Masyado ba? Sorry ha? Mahal ko siya e. Kaya ko siyang ipaglaban.

Inisip ko na kaya ko. Pinilit kong kayanin. Pero hindi e. Hindi ko kinaya ung sakit. Bakit? Hindi masakit ang makita mong .. magpapakasal na sila?

Ayaw ko. Gusto ko akin lang siya. Hindi na niya ako mabibigyan ng atensyon pag nagpakasal siya.

Tapos ngayon? Umiiyak siya sa burol ko dahil iniwan siya ng mahal niya. Ngayon lang kasi niya naisip kung gaano ako ka-importante sa buhay niya.

Hindi niya kasi naranasan ung sakit na dinanas at naramdaman ko.

"Jade *SNIFF* da-dapat hindi mo ak-ko iniwan. Iniwan na niya ak-ko. So-Sobrang sak-kit. Jade, tu-tulungan mo ak-ko," sinasabi niya ang mga 'yan habang umiiyak sa libingan ko.

Kung alam mo lang. Andito ako sa harap mo. Sinusubukan kong kunin ang mga sakit na nararamdaman mo. Gusto kong lumapit sa'yo ngunit, bawal ako. May limitasyon ako. 

Alam mo ba? Umiiyak rin ako ngayon. Nadurog kasi ung puso mo. Ung pinaka-ayaw kong mangyari. Durog na durog, kagaya nung nangyari sa puso ko.

Ikaw lang naman ang laman nito. Ikaw lang naman ang tinitibukan nito. Gustung-gusto kong bumalik sa'yo at yakapin at patahanin ka .. at saluhin 'yang durog mong puso.

Hindi lang naman ikaw ung nasasaktang ngayon e. Ako rin naman nasasaktan. Nakikita kitang umiyak, dahil sa isang babaeng pinakawalan ka.

Sana .. sana hindi na lang pala ako namatay!

Sana .. hindi na lang pala ako nagpakamatay!

Sana pala hindi na lang kita iniwan!

Sana pinigilan na kita noon pa!

Sana .. sana pala .. ayaw ko kasing makitang nagagalit ka sa akin kaya hindi ko nagawa.

Sana .. sana na lang ang masasabi ko.

Sana pala ...

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P's Note: Kaloka. Nakakaiyak. Pati ako naiyak habang tina-type ko ito e. XD <//3