With a New Face of Failure

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P.O.V. of Toni

I wanted to tell him to not close the door, he could at least leave the door open so I could try to run from Roger. I felt horrible, I should have told him earlier, I shouldn't have even came up with that plan. I just knew Roger would be a better dad than I would ever be, but at the moment, I think I was concerned about my responsibilities and what I would have to deal with. It was selfish. I open my mouth, the words in my mind should come out through my throat, but it just stayed in my head. "Just say it." I say, instead, I just wanted him to get it over with.

"Say what?" He grumbled.

"That you hate me, you want me out of the band, we're no longer close anymore, no longer friends... No longer brothers." I stared at the ground, the last words burned in my throat, I didn't want him to say it, but I deserve it. 

"I don't know."

"Look, just say it. Don't lie."

"Be honest?"

"Yes." I force a whisper.

"I don't hate you. I think I was stressed." He says. 

"I said no lying." 

"I'm not, Toni. I didn't mean anything I said, except you're a little selfish."

I laugh a little. "It's a habit."

"I know. I just wish you were honest with me, with all of us." 

"I can't always be honest with everyone, I'm a dick I know. I'm honest about that..." I sigh.

"You are not, you're just misunderstood, people don't see you like I do."

"I think I need to tell you something." I say, thinking about his distance cousin and Dakota. 

"Anything."

"I'm bi..." 

"By what?"

"No, bi, as in bi-sexual." I say, closing my eyes, no one likes a gay band member. 

"I know." He says quietly. 

"How?" The tears crept around my eyes, as I looked up at him.

He laughs, "Like I don't see you checking out guys and girls. I think I'm the only who sees it though."

"Since when did you see that?" 

"Since like a couple of months ago." He walks over and pats my shoulder. "I think you would be an alright  dad, just need to fix yourself up." He took a piece of gum out of pocket and hands it to me. "No more drinking or fucking around. Got it?" I reach for it, but he pulls it back. "I mean it, Toni, starting today, now. Here." He stern looked me in the eye. 

"Okay."

"You have to promise me." 

"I promise. I really do." He studies me then gives me the gum, I shove it into my mouth. "You can't tell the guys."

"Okay, but you will have to, you have to be honest with group. Please?" 

I sigh. "Yeah... But what if they tell the media?" 

"They won't - "

"What if they do? What if someone finds out."

"Then you're coming out with the truth." I slump in my chair. "They won't." He pats my head. "Promise."

"Fine." I sit up and pull him in for a hug. "You deserve a better friend." I whisper in his ear.

"No one is better than you." He whispered back.

"Brothers, again?" I smile and pull back, a little tears come around. 

"Yeah." He sniffled and got up. "Let's go and explore L.A. Maybe you should talk to Dorine. I mean, after I scared the living shit out of her, she could use some affection." He grabs my jacket and pulls me up. "Call her."

"What... But I want to spend time with my brother." I smile as we walk out. 

"Aw, she can wait til tomorrow." We exit the room, but he stops at the security guards. "You guys can take a break." He punches them lightly, they nod, thanking him and leave. We walk towards Starbucks. "Maybe we should live in L.A." 

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