With a New Face of Failure

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P.O.V. of Toni

We woke up and Kyle had coffee in his hands. He looked like he didn't sleep. Well I know I slept. I dreamt about everything that is going on what secrets I had hidden. I'm so glad we forgot about the confession circle, I think Roger would have killed me and the band would have dismembered me. It wasn't worth losing them, but I know it would come up one day. But this last night wasn't that day. "Hey guys. I got coffee."

"Why?" I said, irritated, he gave me a flat line from his lips.

"Because I want to. Geez." He shoved my coffee into my hands. What's his problem?

"Thanks Kyle." Oliver took his drink.

"Roger, you okay?" Kyle poked his arm, he's been quiet for a while and they have been keeping him in here for a long time, just for a caution. I'm actually feeling bad for him. He seems so distance. 

"Yeah, maybe we need to get out, tonight." He smiled weakly. Roger was like my blood brother, he was the only brother that didn't make fun of me. I hated seeing him like this. It sickened me.

"You sure? Don't you have an MRI today?" Oliver leaned in his chair. Oliver had a really nice jaw line.

"Yeah, but I mean, it will take a couple of days to get the results. I kinda miss the bus." Roger tapped his chin. Kyle looked away, I think I was the only person who noticed this, but then he looked back at Roger. "It's in like a couple of hours."

"2 hours." I corrected him.

He shot me a look. "Thank you, Toni." He looked back at them. "So yeah, I think I should start getting ready and take out all my piercings." He started with his plugs and moved to his eyebrow. "Done. Imma take a shower." He got up and almost lost his balance. "I think I forgot how to walk for a minute." He laughed. I haven't realized that it's been almost a week in here. I would have gone insane. I think I was the only one who hasn't gone out, and Kyle, too. But he got coffee. So he doesn't count. He slowly walked to the bathroom, then got the hang of it.

"I feel really bad for Roger." I say as he disappears into the bathroom.

"Why? It's not that bad." Kyle sits on his bed.

"You know with the whole baby thing." I blurted. They spit their coffee out of their mouths.

"Roger is a dad?!" They both yelled.

"...shit." I bit my lip. "I think you forgot the sugar." I give Kyle a sour look.

"Dear God Toni! What the hell are you talking about?!" Oliver says.

"Roger.... got a girl pregnant." I say, tasting the bitter coffee again. I sucked it up and just drank it. 

"...how? When?!" Kyle stares at me.

"Well... I think you know the process of baby making, and just a couple of months ago." I look at the cup. "I shouldn't have told you... Damn it." 

"Why didn't he tell us?" Oliver stared at his hands. "I thought we close like that..."

"Sorry, maybe he just trusts me more than you." 

"Shut up, Toni." Kyle rolls his eyes. "Could at least be sensitive? Once? This is a very vulnerable moment right now. Can't you see that? Our best friends is going to be a dad, and maybe not even live. God, you're such an ass hole. You know that?" His words slapped me in my face. Am I really a bother? I got up, grabbed my coat and started to walk out. Embarrassed.

"Thank you for the coffee." I say and walk out. 

I wonder around, ignoring the calls and texts beeping from my phone. I got tired of walking and was a little depressed, so what's not better than getting drunk? I walk into a bar, not bothering to look at the name. I sit at the bar and a girl is behind the counter, cleaning. "Hey, can I get a shot?"

"Sure thing." She walks around to the other side.

"Make that two." A guy's voice comes from my right. Dakota, just about the hottest guy I know. He had blonde hair and a million dollar smile. And his eyes, don't get me started, a bright hazel. We've had a small fling before, but... I don't know what happened. I guess I started being straight and he just went out my eyes. "I missed you, Toni." 

I turn to look at him. To see the same face and voice from a couple of months ago. "Heeyy." I turn back around, trying avoid his face.  

"How have ya been?" She placed the shots in front of us. "Thanks."

"I'm good. Yourself?" I sip. "Another please?"

"Sure." She says.

Eventually, I end up drunk with multiple shot glasses in front of me, and I'm laughing it off with Dakota. "You know how we had a thing?" He asks out of the blue. 

"Yeah." I smile, remembering snuggled up with him. Ugh I sound like a girl...

"Maybe we should turn that into something." He looks down, then at me. 

I hiccup and laugh. "Maybe." I lick the juice from the empty glasses. 

"Maybe you should get back with your band." He laughs and helps me off the stool. "Thanks again!" He yells over his shoulder to the girl as we walk out. "Where are you guys?"

"NO!" I yell. "Not going back there." I checked my phone. 23 messages from Oliver, Kyle, and Roger and 12 calls. "Oh looky here..." I smile and show him the phone.

"What happened between you guys?" He walked through streets. 

"Just this fight about Roger's baby. I wasn't suppose to tell anyone. Sh..." I put my finger to his lips, soft, pink lips. 

"You're drunk off your ass, Toni." He laughs and bats my finger away. "I won't tell."

"You're hot and a goodie goodie." I smile as I shuffle my feet. "You know I've always like good guys." I laughed as he held me up. 

"I always like good boys, but you changed." He sighed.

"Whaaaat do you mean?" I slurred. We slowly walked into a hotel.

"You've been distance and selfish, I hate it." He frowns. 

"Well, I'm sorry baby. I just like banging girls now." I laugh. He stops.

"You can be a real dick." He stares at me. I lean in to kiss him, but he pushes my face back. "Let's go." He ends up dragging me to his room. He throws me on the bed. I take off my shirt and jacket.

"I still like you..." I whisper. I can't tell if that's a lie or if I still like him.

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