Fallen

Chapter 11

Dean gently helped Cas into the car before climbing into the driver's side. Cas watched as Dean started up the car and carefully, too carefully, pull out of the parking lot. The whole time Dean was driving he seemed unsure of every movement he made, constantly checking for any other vehicles. It was silent, there was no radio blaring, no speaking, just the hum of cars passing them, it was odd. He didn't quite understand what he and Dean were but he was happy.

He smiled happily thinking about the kiss earlier, it was nice, especially hearing Dean's voice again even if only for a little bit, it was hoarse from lack of use and sounded a bit off, but Cas didn't mind he would always love the sound of Dean's voice. He wished he'd use it more, but he was more or less selectively mute now. Cas sighed as he stared out the window. He was content.

After two hours of driving they finally arrived at the hospital. Dean hurriedly climbed out of the car and rushed into the building. By the time Cas had entered the building Dean was already being given directions. He took off down the hall and Cas had to quickly follow behind. Once he turned the corner he nearly ran into Dean.

'You can't tell Sam about us. ' he signed 'Whatever this is. ' Cas looked at him confused.
'Why' he asked.
'Because he has a lot of things on his mind and I don't know how he'll react plus I don't even know what we are. ' he signed angrily. Cas sighed, shaking his head.

"Dean. " he spoke putting his hand on his shoulder and tilting his head up. He removed his hands once Dean had made eye contact and began to sign, speaking softly.
"Are you scared that Sam won't accept you because you are with a male?" Dean nodded slightly.
'Well yeah I mean I'm gay!' he signed angrily before gesturing at his body like it was something vile. Cas pulled Dean into a hug, before pulling out of the embrace.
"Dean being gay is nothing to be ashamed of and that's not what you are, there are other sexualities such bi, ace, pan and many others. And Sam is your brother and he's been through a lot with you I highly doubt he'll be angry or disown you just because your bisexual. " Dean looked at him realization hitting his face.
I'm bi?' he asked Cas nodded and walked over and cupped his face. Dean looked at him with big green eyes, Cas smiled and leaned in and softly pressed his lips against Dean's.

He pulled away, his hand brushing Dean's. "We don't have to tell him if you don't want to. " he shook his head.
'No I want to tell him. ' he looked pretty nervous as he signed it. Cas nodded and grabbed his hand before singing 'It will be ok. ' Dean nodded before lightly kissing Cas' cheek and walking into Sam's room.

Sam looked up as he heard the door open and he saw his brother enter the room. A big smile crept up his face that matched his brothers when he saw him. Dean came over and hugged him tightly. San winced a little but he hugged his brother back just as tight if not tighter. He looked over and saw Cas standing in the doorway.
"Good to see you. " he said as Dean pulled up a chair to sit on. Cas nodded.
"You as well" Dean seemed a bit uncomfortable so Sam tapped his shoulder before signing if he was ok. Dean looked at him with his eyebrows furrowed.
'Am I OK? I should be asking if your ok ' Sam sighed.
"Dean I'm fine. Now tell me what's on your mind. " Sam could see that something was bugging Dean and he wanted to know what.

Cas came over and rested a reassuring hand on Dean's shoulder, he looked up at him and smiled before taking a deep breath and whispered.
"I'm queer, and I uh am sorta with Cas. " Sam couldn't help but be shocked, his mouth hanging open. Dean carefully looked up at him before standing up. " I gotta go. " he said with a crack in his voice and not just from being unused.
"Wait!" Sam called trying to grasp his brother's wrist. Dean kept walking. Cas grabbed his wrist and turned him around.
"Wait look at Sam. " he said. Dean shook his head and went to leave before Cas dragged him over to his brother. Dean reluctantly looked up at Sam.
"I'm not mad at you I'm surprised. I'm happy for you. I have suspected you were bisexual for a while and that you have liked Cas. I'm just surprised that you did something about it. " he said as well as signed.
'Really?' Dean asked. Sam nodded and pulled his brother in for another hug. Dean clutched onto the back of his shirt burying his face into his neck. Sam gently patted his back as Dean sighed in relief.