Running Low {S.M}

XIV - Don't Be A Fool

Elena.

I couldn't process the events in front of me. All I could focus on was the amount of blood on Shawn's hand, and Will on the floor with no emotion whatsoever.

"Elena," Shawn mumbled and walked towards me.

"Get away from me," I muttered while pushing him away.

"Elena please," he said as I pushed past him to go beside Will.

"You should go," I mumbled while looking at Will's messed up face.

"No Lena, I'm not leaving," he said and I could feel him coming closer to me.

I turned around and could feel tears spill out from my eyes.

"I said go Shawn! Leave!" I screamed and he backed away as his emotions changed.

In an instant, his eyes filled with anger.

"Are you kidding me right now Elena! I did this for you! He hurt you and he got what he deserved!" Shawn yelled and I turned away from him.

"But I told you not to go! I told you to stay but you didn't listen!" I shouted and his face dropped.

"I can't believe this right now," he mumbled and I turned back towards him while getting up from the floor.

"Well I can't believe you right now! You aren't supposed to be like this! Not like him!" I said in frustration.

"Don't compare me to him Elena! I did what was right because everything he did to you not only effected you but me as well!" He shouted and backed away from me.

"Don't pull that on me! If you did understand me and have feelings for me you would've listened!" I yelled coldly and he just shook his head.

"Well I'm sorry I wanted to protect you Elena! And I'm sorry I'm not the perfect guy you thought I was!" He said and I could see small tears forming in his eyes.

"Shawn don't say that," I said, with my voice and emotions calming down a little.

"Say what? The truth! I forgot all you know is just lies!" He screamed which took me aback.

"Are you fucking serious!" I yelled and got up closer to him, pushing him against the door.

"I'm sorry you don't know what I'm going through.  The fact that I thought I knew everything because I decided to trust someone doesn't mean I can't see behind someone's lies Shawn!"

"Look, you're right, and I'm sorry," he said and started closing the gap between us.

"No, you're not.  You're not the same guy I met or looked up to anymore.  You should just go.  Now," I hissed and backed away from him.

"Fine.  I'll see you Monday then since I bet you'll want to watch," he mumbled and I shook my head.

"No.  You won't be seeing me.  Not now, or ever.  Goodbye Shawn," I said and returned to Will's side.

After that, I heard the door slam shut with no words following.  I looked down at Will, and he was starting to wake up.

"Lena?" He mumbled and I nodded while gently caressing his cheek.

"Yeah baby it's me," I said and my tears finally fell.

I wasn't crying because I was happy to see Will.  I didn't want to see him, but there was so much love I've built up for him and it's not easy to let that fade.

The truth was, I was crying because Shawn left.  His words caused me so much pain, and I wish I could've done something better.  I needed him here with me, but after seeing this, I couldn't bare to go near him.

"I'm so sorry Lena," he whispered while pulling me close to him.

"I-I know babe.  It's alright.  Let's just go get you cleaned up," I said and gently pulled him up off the ground.

"N-no.  I-I don't deserve you anymore Elena.  Y-you're too good for me.  I can't bare t-the thought of hurting you a-agin," he stuttered while moving away from me.

"Will, please.  I love you, now let me help you," I said and pulled him into the kitchen to clean his cuts.

"Elena.  Don't be nice to me.  Don't care for me.  Don't say you love me because I know you don't," he said and in my head I knew he was right.

I didn't love him.  Maybe I never did.  I was just blinded of the thought of being told that we were perfect for each other.  I was in love with someone else, but for right now I wasn't.

"But I do Will, I always will," I said and gently pressed a wet cloth to his face.

"You deserve someone better than me.  You need someone who can treat you better and who won't lie to you, just please don't stay with me," he pleaded and I just frowned.

"I'm not leaving Will.  You may have done a lot of damage to me, but I need you," I said and even my heart regretted those words.

"You don't.  Just please, I'll do this.  You just have to leave.  I can't stay with you because I don't want to hurt you," he said with a small cry.

"You want me to leave?" I questioned making sure this was what he really wanted.

"Yes," he finalized and I just nodded.

"Okay Will, I'll leave.  Just know that I love you," I whispered while pressing my lips gently to his.

"I know, and I'll always love you," he said as I left him alone in the kitchen.

I walked up to our room and grabbed all of my things.  I didn't really know where I was going to go since I didn't really have any relatives nearby.  My parents died when I was little, so there's no one basically.

I guess it's time to look for some hotels for the time being.