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I hung up the phone and looked at Grayson and scoffed, "Why are you even here? Didn't ya hear.. my dad wants to KILL you." I try and scare him with the truth but he wouldn't budge. "I don't care." He rolls his eyes and hops off the counter and grabs my hands. "All I care about is making sure you are okay and not alone tonight. You just found out some pretty intense shit." He says calm. The warmth of his hands calmed me down but I didn't want to let him win. I ripped his hands of me and pushed him away. "Grayson I don't need you, my sister is going to be with me tonight. Even if she wasn't you'd be the LAST person I would want with me." I yell. I stomp my way back towards the front door to the seas of people and officials. But Grayson suddenly yells back. "Taya, I'm so so sorry about what I did with Jake and what happened to those girl and I'm doing what I can to fix my ways please don't stay mad at me." He exclaims still following me to the front. I laugh at his clueless ass. "You're so fucking stupid. That's just half the reason you make me sick. Don't fucking act like you don't know. You claim to have this 'love' for me but the second I reject you, you're already on to 2 other girls. And what makes it even worse is you did it RIGHT in front of me and didn't say SHIT." I felt myself get hot from anger, I clench my fists and Grayson licks his lips and fixes his mouth to speak but luckily Officer Walker intrudes. "Hey Miss. we're taking you're father to the hospital now. You can catch a ride with me or any of the others if you would like to be with him for a little before gets heavily sedated and put to sleep for the night."

I sigh and put my hands in the back pockets of my jeans. "I-I'm uh I'm just gonna wait until my sister gets here so we can go together." He nods and signals everyone to load up. By then everyone is going back to doing what they were doing before the disaster struck. I lean against the entrance of the door waiting for Lani's car to pull up so I can see dad as soon as possible. I heard Graysons footsteps head towards the stairs. He took a seat on the third stair and sighed. We both sat in awkward silence, the only noise that was made was the wind flowing against the crisp leaves on the fading trees.

All this shit is happening so ducking quick and it's only 11:00 in the morning. My head began to hurt, so did my legs. I slid down until I was sitting down still staring out into the world. I heard Gray sigh and I hoped he would say something but again I didn't want to hear his voice, but he did talk but it was quiet and insecure. "-I was apologizing.." he says staring at the patterns created by the lines of the hardwood floor. I turned my head to where I could see him in the corner of my eye. "what?" I ask. The wind was whistling into my ears and hair so it made it even harder for me to hear. I then cave in and turn around completely until I was facing him.

He clenched his jaw, and licked his lips and they began to glisten in the light. He wiped sweat off his palms and looked me in my eyes. "I was apologizing.. I was apologizing to those girls." He finally admits. I frown with confusion and got a word in before he continued to talk.
"Wha-"
"Those were some of the girls that I had with Jake. After I saw that I hurt you I began to realize what I did was much worse than I thought and the only think I could to do was apologize to those poor girls, and explain to them why I did... what I-I did." He finally finishes then puts his face into his hands and sighs. "Did you do it for YOU.. or for me?" I ask quietly. He slowly removes his face from his hands, "I did it for them, they needed closure and an explanation. But you helped me see that since you were in the same situation with-with my brother. So for you too." He confesses getting up from the step. He moves slowly next to me onto the floor.

In that moment I felt my heart beating loud, I felt as if I were to cry, I could feel it creep up my throat. He never gave up on me, he never left me even when I told him off and never wanted to see him again. He comfort me during terrible times, during that sexual assault attempt, my suicide attempts and now, with my dad, it seemed like no matter what he was always there for me. He protects me and I... I love him. He put his hand on my cheek and I cuddled against it. His warmth once again gave my body satisfaction and relief. I could sleep in his hands. He then moves his hand from my cheek to my chin and pulls me in and kisses me. Not lustfully but lovingly. Once our lips parted he spoke. "Taya I lo-"
a sudden car door slams causing him to not finish his words. It was Lani she jerked her head towards the car signaling us to get into the car. We get up from the ground and head to the car that smelled of rotting food and weed, and go to the hospital.