cuffed • g.d

16.

I peek over the edge and the waves were screaming with anger. I close my eyes. This is it. This will end it all, don't back out now. I open my eyes back up and build up the courage to climbed into the cold metal handle. I sat with my legs dangling over the dangerous water.

I couldn't help but cry, like I always fucking do. The fact that I've come to this point and there is no one that cares enough to stop me. Would anyone even notice? Would anyone try to find me? I close my eyes to try and cut off the tears. I took breath in and looked into the sky. The last thing I was ever going to see was how sad the dark sky was, and how lit the moon was compared to it. I fixed my body over the edge and as I begin to let go,

"TAYA!" I hear someone yell. I heard the crunch of the concrete as the figure ran towards me. A familiar force pulled me over the edge and I fell to the hard cracked ground. I wipe the tears from my face and look at the figure who saved me and of course, it was Grayson. He was with some other guy who stood behind and waited. "What the were you thinking?" He yells at me gasping for air. He leans against the bars and waits for my answer.

I sniffle. "I was thinking that maybe if I jump my problems would follow me in as well. I'm drowning in my non-stop breaking life and I'm fed up. But whenever I try someone always interrupts. Why the fuck do you even care? I'm just some noisy stalker chick right?" I snap still sucking up tears.
"Listen, we all have problems but you can't just kill yourself over them because you never know when those problems will suddenly just leave. It's never too late, but killing your self isn't the answer." He responds wiping the tear from my checks.

I pull away and get up. "It's not the first time I've done it and it will NOT be the last. How did you even find me?" I dust off my pants to get the pebbles off from the contact k had with the concrete.
He hesitates to answer but eventually does. "Janos is right down the street. Me and my buddy Aaron always take a walk before curfew." He announces pointing to Aaron who was standing beneath the light post. "I'm actually glad I found you. I wanted to apologize for what happened earlier. It's just I kind of keep that part of my life separate from when I'm with my regular friends." He explains.

I try to understand what he meant. I began to walk with him and Aaron. "What do you mean that part of my life.? Ugh fuck I didn't mean to be all in your business." I say quick.
"No it's fine," he says in response. "I mean the crazy part of my life, the crazy brother, drugs, running away, the violence." He explains. "My life is a fucked up roller coaster." He sighs.
Tell me about it.