Damaged and Broken

I will live to see to see another day but my pack wont

Athena's P.O.V

I looked up at him waiting for him to deliver the final blow that would end my pathetic life, i waited but it never came. I looked up into his dark blue eyes as they changed from dark blue to black. He locked eyes with mine and i swear i felt butterflies in my stomach. I felt nervous and shy, i wondered why he hadn't killed me yet so i decided to ask.

"Aren't you going to kill me?" My question seemed to startle him, he clearly didn't expect that answer from me. His eyes turned cloudy and became glassy, as if he was upset about something. I wanted to reach out and stroke his face, tell him that everything would be ok.

"Why do you ask that?" He growled, looking behind me with pure hatred in his eyes. I lowered my head as my frame shook in fear of his growling. He stopped immediately and looked at me with sorry eyes. He walked towards me and i cowered away frightened of what he would do. I may act all brave, but deep down i'm actually a very shy person due to all the hard child labour i have being doing all my life. He reached out with arms towards me and i flinched when our skin made contact. I felt little electric shocks run up and down my body. I was confused by this, i had never felt anything like it before. He cradled me close to his chest as i heard many gasps around us. He was holding me almost like a lover. My head was on his shoulder and my arms around his neck as he held my lower back and underneath my legs in his arms. I was so scared that he would throw me off him. I shook with shivers frightened and he turned his head and whispered in my ear so nobody could hear,

"Are you cold, my dear?" He stroked my cheek with his finger.

"No... No Alpha sir" I whispered back afraid he would hit me if i never called him by his title. He looked at me sympathetically. I don’t know why though, even though i was never treated properly i should never be given special attention because other people around the world had suffered worse than me.

"You don’t have to call me by my status, and why did you think i was going to kill you?" He repeated. I shook my head and mumbled a few words softly but he couldn't hear them.

"Could you speak a bit louder sweetie?” He pleaded and i looked at him in fear that he would snap at me any moment now.

"I do have to call you by your status alpha because i would receive a beating from mine if i didn't adress them properly. I thought you were going to kill me because, you're going to kill the pack and i'm guessing it's your beta he asked who wanted to die first and they (I indicated behind me) pushed me forwards to die so..." I trailed off and looked down at the floor but he was persistant in trying to hold my wandering gaze. I was startled when he placed his fingers under my chin to raise my head so i looked at his beautiful face. I took one look in his eyes and i was hopelessly lost. I felt the electricity between us flow like a current around my body. It was dazzling. He cleared his throat and replied in a growl,

" I would never kill you, never, but i couldn't say the same for your pack, they will definatly die either by my hand or my packs. They will not live to see another day and i will make them pay for what they did to you." I panicked, what would i do without a pack, i would surely die.

"Alpha, sir what would i do without a pack, i would be forced to become rogue and then i would be hunted down and killed and i..i..i" I panicked and i couldn't breathe. I began to hyperventilate as my starving lungs tried to breathe in the precious oxygen that they craved so badly for me to survive. I put my hand to my throat as if i was choking, my eyes wide filled with terror. I looked up only to see the other alpha worried. He took my hand in his warm big hand and placed it on his chest, i felt his heart beat thump beneath my small fragile hand. I listened to its regular beat as it pumped blood around his body.

"Breathe with me, my precious jem. In and out, listen to my heart and try to follow it." I blocked everything out and listened to his slow but steady heart beat and i felt myself calm down, slowly but surely. It felt good that i could breathe freely again. I heard him whisper a command to his pack, it was one word that could cause riot, one word that could change the future massively, one word that could end somebodys life or save anothers, this one word was,

"Attack" I watched as everybody ran for each other. It was horrifying, i saw limbs fly from all directions and i saw blood spurt in the air. I smelt death. I closed my eyes unable to watch the scene infront of me. I felt somebody pick me up and i opened one eye to take a peek. It was the person who made my stomach feel like it was home to millions of butterflies, the one who made my knees weak. He placed me by the tree and kissed my forehead before he was gone. I watched as he shifted into a beautifully glossy massive black wolf, Eyes as dark as the midnight sky. He launched himself into the fight. It wasn't long before virtually everybody was dead. Everybody except my family, my brother, father and mother. I watched as my brother came ever so close to me i felt his arms around my tiny throat. One twist could end it all. I heard a growl eminate from somebodys chest. Then i heard my brothers evil laugh,

"So its true, Ethan, this pathetic excuse of life and worthless piece of shit is your mate, it's a shame she wont be around for much longer." He sniggered. Was that the sexy alpha's name? Ethan, i liked it. What? Why am i thinking like this. I mentally smacked myself for my inaproppriet thoughts. I watched as my mother was grabbed by Ethan, i watched as his wolf grabbed her neck in it's claws and snapped it like a chicken bone. Crunch. I heard that horrible noise that ended my horrible mothers life. I felt my brothers arms loosen around me as he watched as our father and Ethan circle each other waiting to attack. Finally my father attacked first but missed and clumsily fell forwards as Ethan finished him off by ripping him limb by limb. I watched as the black wolf casually rolled the dead head towards us. It landed at the base of my brothers feet. I looked into his lifeless dull eyes as my brother dropped to his knees letting out a defeated cry. When he let go of me i ran behind the tree and vomited. I felt sick to my core. I heard a few screams then knew my brother had been eliminated. I dared not to go back round, scared of what i would see. I remembered my brother saying something about being mates. I'm a white wolf, and i could be an alpha's mate. Ethan is an alpha, i have naughty thoughts about only him, i feel tingles when i touch him and i'm utterly lost when i look into his ocean coloured eyes. This could only mean one thing and one thing only. Ethan was probably my mate. But there must be a mistake because i have no mate. I'm sure his mate is at home waiting for him. I sighed. I would be alone forever. I looked up to see his eyes looking at me filled with sorrow. I was scared of him, i walked backwards cowering away. When he reached out a hand i flinched away scared. I shook my head as i bolted into the woods and i shifted into my wolf leaving the scenes of my past behind me. I was too scared to look backwards, i was scared of this pack. Ethan said he wouldn't kill me, but i doubt that he would stick to his word. I guess i was now a rogue. I was practically a nobody. I found a safe place as it began to rain, i hid as i cried myself to sleep that night. My life had changed in a matter of minutes. I would never be the same person again.

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