He's not my dad

Chapter 21

Ernesto carried my case into chucks appartment before he showed me around. I took my things to the guest room and just collapsed on the bed, I was exhausted. The pent up frustration came out like a tsunami of tears. I curled up in a ball and just sobbed. I don't know how long I laid there but it felt like hours. When my eyes were as empty as my stomach I forced myself to stand up.

I padded barefoot through the modern apartment, it was bachelor pad through and through. For some reason it felt safe even though it was foreign to me. I found my way into the large white kitchen and found it void of food, I did find some takeover menus in a drawer.

I ordered the ultimate heartbreak feast of cake,ice cream and chocolate. I was grateful for my surroundings when I found multiple bottles of alcohol in the cabinet. I swore to myself that I would replace whatever I drank. I poured a large glass of whiskey and wanted for my food to arrive.

I looked like a lonely old spinster, I was sat with my knees by my chest with a large tumbler in my hands. I was staring at an imaginary spot on the wall, I don't know what I was expecting to happen but I just stared at the wall like it held the answers. This was my routine asfter a breakup either large or small, I would get away and cleanse my mind. I had ran of to Paris when Sam and I had split.

I didn't leave the sofa until my food was delivered, I grabbed a bowl and spoon and sat at the kitchen table. I ate the food like if it disappeared then so would my troubles. I was eating my second slice of cake when my phone rang for the fiftieth time but this time it wasn't gregs ringtone. I searched through my bag and found my cell, chucks name flashed on the screen.

"Hi" my voice was quiet and timid, I didn't sound like myself.

"I just called to check your decent, I'm outside"

I forced a laughed "im decent come in"

Chuck waltzed in and looked at all the food that currently sat at his table. I felt guilty for behaving like a pig in his house. He surveyed the mess and walked to the kitchen draws, I thought he was getting a trash bag but he surprised me by returning with a spoon of his own.

He sat by me without saying a word and began eating the cake with gusto. I laughed but this time it wasn't fake.

"You like desert" I asked as I continued to eat.

"Um yeah, I'm disappointed not to see cookie dough" he said with a fake pout.

"It's cookie dough ice cream" I replied dryly.

Chuck grabbed the ice cream to check I had been honest, I rolled my eyes.

"What are you doing here, you didn't miss your gig did you. Please tell me you didn't" I begged.

"No tay I went to my gig I just left after. You know it's midnight don't you"

I looked at my cell, I didn't believe it was so late. I had left the party at 2, what had I been doing all that time. Had I really been crying for hours, I was a cliche.

"Did you tell anyone where I am" I knew he wouldn't have but I had to ask. I wanted to know if Greg had asked about me , I wanted to know what he was thinking.

"No Tay, my dad asked if I had seen you. I said no. Your parents asked if I knew where you were I said you had text me saying you were staying at a friends" he stopped talking.

"I didn't see bree, bree wasn't at the party. Apparently she left with a man an hour after the party started"

"She left, she left with a man" I was confused, brees boyfriend was still away.

"Don't worry about her right now, how are you feeling"

"Like shit, I've been a fool. Everyone said we wouldn't work that the age difference was too much and I didn't listen" I kept my tears at bay by eating. I had eaten so much that I would need hours at the gym to work it off.

"You haven't been a fool, you can't help who you love. I know Dad loves you but he can't fake wanting things that you don't. It's better that you find out how than in 10 years"

"Your right, I need to cut him out of my life. I hope you and I can remain friends. I thought it was love but we were so different and I had to be something I wasn't when I was around him" I had become close to chuck in the last few months, we did everything from attending gigs together to clubbing.

"You can't get rid of me that easy, are you going to tell my dad in person. What are you going to do when you see him in the office"

I hadn't thought about that, it had never crossed my mind that I would have to see him again. I cared for Greg and it was going to be hard enough for me without me having to see him everyday at the office.

"I'll have to put my notice in, I've got money. I think I would like to run my own business" I had an idea what I liked doing and what I wanted my business to be.

"Do tell"

"I'm going to set up my own party planning company, I have so much experience from being around my mom . I know there's so many party planners but I want to plan everything from bachelorette parties to grand balls" I hadn't put a great deal of though in to it, I had just come up to with it. I would need to think, I wasn't in the right state of mind to make any life altering decisions.

"You can throw my album launch party, I could be your first client"

"I'll hold you to that " I joked.

"I know you don't want to talk about my dad but your phones been blowing up. I think you need to see what he's saying"

I nodded and looked at my phone.there were over 10 missed calls from Greg and 7 texts. I hadn't realised he knew how to text.

** Taylor you need to come back here, what you heard was out of context**

**where are you, your things have gone**

**i understand that your upset but can we please talk about this, I want to be with you**

**Taylor you need to act like the grown up you say you are and answer your phone or better still come here**

**just txt me let me know that your safe. I love you**

**you know what I can't deal with this, your a child. You wonder why I don't want to marry you when you act like this. If you can't contact me I can't do this anymore.**

** I don't mean that, I'm sorry.**

I growled as I read the messages, chuck looked concerned so I handed him my cell. He looked surprised, he closed his eyes as he read the last few, he knew how much those words would hurt me.

"Fuck" he whispered.

"Indeed, pass me the phone"

"What you going to do" he was holding phone tightly, he was hesitant to pass it me.

"You'll see" I took the phone from him and dialled gregs number.

The cell only rang once before Greg answered, "don't say a thing , you've said enough. It's my turn."

I was stern and harsh but I needed to say what I felt before I chickened out.

"You were right I am too young for you, I want kids, I want marriage. I want a life I don't want to eat dinner at 6. I don't want to spend my Sundays at the club I want to get drunk and go to gigs. I really do love you but I love my future children more. I hope you find someone who makes you happy and wants what you do but that's not me. Goodbye Greg" I released the call and looked at chuck. He stood up and wrapped his arms around me. I sobbed in his shoulder .

In one week I went from being on the top of the world to being in the gutters. I knew deep down it was the right thing to do.