Requested | Goth X Anxiety Reader

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It was a beautiful day outside . The leaves fell as the autumn wind blew. I looked at the school yard relaxing and letting my mind drift as the breeze blew through my hair.

I let out a soft sigh and stretched feeling my shoulders pop. I was now in the 12th grade it wouldn't be long till graduation and for the four years I had been here I've done nothing and I'm coming to regret it.

'It's better to regret something than to regret nothing ' and I have lived against this quote. When I first attended school here I had a crush that soon festered into love. His name was Goth.

I blushed at the thought of him.

I couldn't keep my eyes off him, he was, so kind, sweet, handsome, smart, cute.....who couldn't help but fall for him. I have tried to get close to him over the years but that was fruitless.

I was more of reserved person and perfered to stay in the shadows. I didn't want to be noticed by anyone or hang out with anyone,  this is exactly why I got know where...but there's a reason I'm like this.

I often get anxiety attacks, they would be so bad sometimes. I decided it was vest I stayed away from others....it was mostly triggered from other people and I can't handle that.

I'm basically just an introvert her lived her whole high school life with lout friends. Now that I think about it this is very sad.

I sighed again and felt my her thump as my cheeks warmed. I wish I could just talk to goth...tell him my feelings, but I know there are others that like him...and I don't know if I can win his heart. I mean goth is a bisexual so...how do you fight for a guy over a guy?

How do you win against that?

I leaned off the window and continued walking down the halls.

Its not like it mattered anyways...someone like me could never get to someone like him. If it weren't for that incident all those years ago this wouldn't have happened.

....that man...my father...he

I stopped walking as I felt my heart quicken a bit and I cleared my head. I needed to stop dwelling on the past before it killed me.

I walked down the hallway with a slow stride avoiding students here and there. Someone suddenly bed into me roughly making me loose balance. I was about to fall when I felt slightly cool hands grab mine. I was pulled to a standing position and I looked to see goth smiling at me sweetly and I blushed ten fold.

"Are you okay?" He asked me and I looked down to see his hands still holding mines.

My stomach had butterflies and my heart skipped a beat. When Goth realised I hadn't answered he looked down to where I was looking and let go of my hand to my dismay.

"Oh, I'm sorry" he apologized as he smiled

"N...no..it's okay um, thanks " I said and quickly walked away trying to calm my beating heart.

I took a deep breath a let it out feeling the heat of my cheeks fade. I then stopped in the middle of the hall completely forgetting what I was going to do.

Suddenly I hear a voice calling Goths name.

"Goth! Hey !" Another skeleton came running.

It was palette,  he was super energetic and just as sweet as Goth, also a cutie pie but from what I heard he has a thing for goth. Of course I couldn't go up against such cuteness ....im barley even attractive.

I sighed again and starter to head to my class before the end of the lunch bell could ri-

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