Built To Be Stronger

Chapter 3

"Noah you can't blame him for this." Our dad tries to explain, only having Xerxes fume more with anger. His cheeks were red and a vein had started to show in his forehead.

He was only gone for a week but I could already see a difference in him, I always paid close attention to him, and I was around him almost twenty-four-seven. His shoulders where broader and had thicker muscles running down his arms, his distraction must be working out. Xerxes loved feeling the last push where his body was ready to give up, his heart however was never satisfied with the work he did.

"And why not?! His father died the same way and I'm sure!-"

"Xerxes!" I cry out and for a first he sees me, as if he didn't notice I was in the room. Stepping away from our dad I couldn't help but feel the pain of loss wash up in my heart again. Making me burst out crying again, falling to my knees I couldn't help it, I was not built to be strong and not cry. I was always protected from heart break, this time no one could save me.

He was by my side cradling me in his arms in seconds, rocking me back and fourth with his soft "shh"ing. I let my sorrows wrack my body in pain as I realized once again all over that she wouldn't wake up. That I would have to make food alone, that the responsibility of Luna is completely on my shoulders. Not having any wiggle room anymore.

"I can't do it! I won't let her leave us! I need to have her with me in my arms! She was so close to beating it!-" he pushes my face into his chest muffling my sobs, my tears mixing in with his sweat he produced when getting here.

"Soph. It's okay, she's with us in spirit, she's safe away from pain now, shh it's okay." Xerxes was a big believer about the moon, how everything happens for a reason. That or he just likes to have an excuse to not feel like it's his fault, he was a tough man. One that would've made the perfect Alpha strong, brave, and caring. He should've been Alpha.

By now our dad had sat back down by our once alive mother, my mama... for Xerxes he would be about avenging her, with the disease he couldn't do that. Leaving him to be angry and ready to blame anyone for the loss of his mum.

I couldn't blame anyone, I couldn't be angry, I was left with the broken heart that I never prepared for. On top of it I was now in charge, to be the one people look to in this pack, yet I wasn't meant to be Luna, my blood isn't meant to rule. I was a weak pup who didn't learn the hardships of life with my overprotective family. I knew this would be a hard year without her. Everything would remind me of how she smelt in the mornings, or how the sun was what made her get out of bed in the mornings. How she used to make me pancakes with extra syrup and strawberries in the early morning, letting the boys sleep in. It would break me down unable to show my face to my pack. I couldn't do this.

"Xerxes dont leave me." He pulled me closer to him if that was even possible as he sat there in silence. We both silently new he would never leave, but if he where to stay around Noah... even though he's just my husband he is also a good person who just lost his mate and his father. My brother will only unleash the beast bellow his surface that could destroy this pack. I can't have that.

"I would never leave you Soph." I pull away from him and look at our hurting dad. Picking his mate up in his arms he walks out of he room with her, no emotions sprayed onto his face. This would be hardest for him.

Xerxes and I stand up, slowly following our dad until he notices us. Using his wolf speed he's out of our sights in seconds. Denying us any access of following him, wherever he may take our mother, he'd make sure she was in the right place.

"I need to help Noah with preparations, you have to stay by dads side, make sure he stays with us." I say to him and he smiles kissing my cheek before leaving to find out where our dad is.