When Everything Collided (On Hold)

Betrayal of Tears

Teddy's PoV

I sat on my bed looking down at the phone in my hand. I've called her nine times and left about twenty-four messages. Yet Kate has not seen the messages or called me back. I knew it, I knew that this wouldn't work out. I knew that is was the alcohol speaking she doesn't really love me does she? That's when I saw them, the water droplets on the bright screen of the phone that still sat in my clenched hands. Tears poured down my face as the battle within me raged. This is all new to me, I don't know how to react. Fernardo is threatened to be put in jail, Jordan is in hospital and Kate... Kate is sleeping over at Zoe's. I found this out when I called Bailey to see where she could be and she explained how she has been ditched to sleep on the couch in Oliver's apartment while Kate slept over at their's. More tears flowed down  my cheeks at the new emotions that swelled within me. I needed her shoulder to cry on, to help relief the stress but I now know that Kate isn't an option.

"A-Am I not good enough for you... for any of you?" My voice was barely above a whisper as I look down at my phone. I try thinking up excuses for Kate not messaging me back, 'her phone is flat', 'her phone is turned off', 'She turned down her notification sounds. With each excuse my grip on the phone tightened till my hands turned white. Then I breathe. My ragged breathes from the tears streaming down my face gave me some relief and straightened out my thoughts. I was overthinking things again, as always my brain thought of the worse case scenario. Even then, Kate never agreed to being my girlfriend. My brain went back to the night where she kissed me. Her lips ghosted over mine, remembering the sensation I felt when she kissed me. She doesn't need to be at my side all the time, she doesn't need to respond to my calls constantly.

"What am I such a clingy bitch!" Without a second thought I threw my phone across the room hitting the adjacent wall. Seeing it hadn't broken I thanked Fernardo for buying me a basically unbreakable phone. He is the only one who truly knew of my 'mental condition' and even then I didn't tell him he sort of... Figured it out. Feeling pathetic once more I stand to my feet and stumble over to the bathroom. The clean bathroom was probably the best kept room in the entire apartment, for multiple reasons. It needs to be clean because its where I get washed and well, it wouldn't be good if more people find out about my cutting. I open the mirror cupboard and pull out my best friend, the blade. I run the water and lift my shirt leaning over the running water, finding this to be the easiest way to clean the blood after I've finished. The blade inches closer to my skin which was already previously covered with scars from the previous times. However, before I could break skin he sound of my phone going off caught my attention. For a moment I stood there dumbfounded. She's calling me back? I slowly shut off the water and place the blade on the side of the sink. I walk towards the phone and pick it up and answered the call without looking at the caller-id.

"K-Kate?"

"No sorry Teddy it's me." I could tell by his voice it was Fernardo and even though I was disappointed that it wasn't Kate I sighed grateful he was alright after not hearing from him after being taken by the cops.

"Fernardo! You used your only call on me? You should have used it on someone better." I return to the bathroom and begin to put the blade away.

"I want you to put it in the toilet and I want to hear it flush." How did he kn- you know what never mind he can just sense this sometimes. I let out a sigh knowing I've been caught. Grabbing the blade I threw it in the toilet and flushed it. I heard Fernardo on the other side of the call let out a breath of relief.

"You know how I feel about you cutting, you should have called Kate or me straight away."

"Well I have called Kate but she ignored my nine calls and multiple texts... She with Zoe so I didn't want to interupt them any further. Plus your at the police station aren't you."

"O-Oh yeah about that. That's the second reason I called you since I trust you with the others the most... They are putting me in jail for a year." I sit on my bed and rub a hand over my face.

"Kidding right, they seriously putting you away, is there no bail I could pay?"

"No Teddy. I don't want you or any of the others to bail me out. I want to do the time to make up to Jordan and keeps me away from that job." I sit up and head to the kitchen wanting a drink to help my dry throat as I feel more tears raise to the surface.

"You know it's not your fault right? You didn't know what Kate meant and you didn't know Jordan would eat them." I hear him chuckle on the other end of the phone. I could imagine him sat with his feet on the table nodding to me as if I was there with him.

"Of course I know this but I'm still responsible for it. I want you to look over them for me, please?" I took a drink of the water and thought about this for a moment.

"I have no choice either way do I? Juts hurry and get back alright." I meant it more as an order then a question and Fernardo knew this.

"Of course, oh, and Teddy before you go back to your best friend and if you can't contact anyone you can trust you know my number." You sneaky cow, I knew his tricks. Whenever he goes into hiding or it off somewhere he keeps a phone hidden on him and only I know the number. He can't make any calls it's just for me to call him.

"I got ya, I'll see you later then?"

"See ya T-" he didn't even finish his sentence as the call went dead. Someone must have ended the call, guess his time was up. I sit on the bed finally able to release the new tears within my eyes. A whole year without Fernardo... This is going to be hell