I'm A Not Girl//PHAN

Chapter 18:

Phil's P.O.V

Screaming loudly for him to stop I sprint over to the shaking boy and my heart breaks. His face bright red and swollen. Tears streaming down his face.

Thats when everything seems to go in slow motion as his body falls limp into the water. Without thinking I jump off into the water towards hi sinking body. His eyes are closed and mouth opening slightly. No no no.

Water fills my nose and ears numbing my senses a the polluted substance swallows up Dan. That when I dele a pull to the other end but I fight against it.

Water blurrs ny vision an my lungs sting as I eventually grip his shirt and pull him upwards. My lungs burn as I reach the surface of the water inhaling sharply. I pull his weka body to the side of the banking.

His face twitches as I begin to climb up after him. The water begins to pull on my clothes an shoes as I try to climb onto the banking. Panic sets in as I can't pull myself up.

"Dan!" I cry out as the boy begins to move, "Dan help!" Tears stream down my face as I begin to feel water pooling around my neck. No god no.

Dan's P.O.V

Water fills my senses before everything turns a whiteish colour as if the ocean was dyed a creamy color. Confused I begin to walk around. In a distance I hear a voice. Is this is death its not too bad.

Intruiged by the voice I run closer to it. Close and closer. Turning into a sprint the vocie gets louder until a light blinds me and I fall.

"Dan!" Yells the voice. Blinking my eye open I'm sprawled across the bankin. Why am I not in the water. Wait he didnt. Oh my gosh he didnt right.

"Dan help!" He yells and I've bever seen Phil Lester scared until this moment. His eyes red and watering and his face caked with dirty water. Scarmbling upwards I grip his arms and try to pull him up.

"Phil dont go please" I sob as water reaches his jaw. I begin to feel the water tugging my arm but I pull and pull whilst screaming for help but no one comes.

"Dan let go please before you fall too" Phil says softly. I know he's terrified hes just trying to protect me. I won't let him die. "Dan I love you so much please let go I won't forgive myself if you die" he says. Shaking my head I keep trying to pull.

Shakily he removes his hand making him sink into the water. Screaming I stare into the water as his body falls limp.  Horror fills his eyes as Iwatch him struggle. "SOMEBODY HELP HIM!" I sob scrambling towards his hands. No no no he can't die he can't die.

Reality kicks in as I glare into the water where Phil Lester ,my savior, drowned. The purest boy died the most painful death. All because of me.

"I love you" I whisper as he dissapears.

Sobs rack my body as guilt crashes down on me. Urge to jump into the water over takes me but I dont i stay put. I wont ruin Phil's efforts. Tears stream down my face as I lay in the mud curled into a ball wishing it was me floating in the water.

Chris P.O.V

"Chris Kendall!" A loud voice booms making me almost jump out of my seat looking around the waiting room frantically. Suddenly I notice a doctor who seems to be the one yelling my name.

"Mr Ligouri is unfortunately not responding as we have planned and we have had to put him into an induced coma!"

My mind blurrs as I feel tears clouding my vision and thoughts. He's alive right? He's going to survive right? Its all my fault. All my fault.

"U-um i-is he g-going to w-w-wake up" I stutter at the frowning man clicking his pen as if it was usual for him to tell someone their friend is in an induced coma.

"I m afraid we cannot answer that as of yet due to the lack of tests being ran to find out the actual problem and even if he does he will most likely suffer from mild amnesia or even forget everything he knows"

He won't forget me right. As if someone had ripped my heart out of my chest and screwed it into a ball before standing on it making sure each part was shattered I stand stiff as a board my lip quivering.

This is my fault. If I hadnt yelled or kicked off or ran away PJ would have not been hit by the car. its all my fault. "You may see Mr Ligouri if you wish but it may be quite emotional."

Nodding gratefully I follow the doctors lead to a wide white door. He holds it open with just enough room for me to squeeze past. And thats when I see him. I cover my mouth to prevent a choked sob escaping as I looked down on the boy.

Many tubes entering an leaving his bruised body. Cuts and scratched littering his face and legs while his arms are bent every which way and coated with plaster.

What have I done. His breathing is shallow as I cautiously step towards him worried I could accidently knock over a tube and cause the end of his life.

Shaking I take a seat next to him before whispering numerous apologies. Carefully I move his fringe out of his face. He's still beautiful. Boy I love him so much but he will never know.

You could say I'm taking advantage of the teen as I slide my hand into his caressing it with my thumb as tears drop one by one onto his bandages.

Loud annoying sobs begin to escape my small body as I rest on his chest holding his hand tightly willing for it to squeeze back but knowing deep down it won't.

"I love you" I whisper before exhaustion takes over and I fall asleep to the soft beating of his heart showing me theres still a slight glimmer of hope.

Well damn things took a turn for the worst didnt they....*throws you some tissues*... This is only 1045 words because I didnt want a MAJOR cliffhanger and also I kinda like the whole whispering "I love you's" and yes if you haven't realised already Chris has a huge crush on PJ...DW the next chapter will be up soon

-Chloe Is Writing Too Much Sad Stuffz