I'm A Not Girl//PHAN

Chapter 16:

Chris' P.O.V

Anger pulsated through me as I think of anyone hurting Dan. Sure me and PJ are gobby twats who can't shut up but Dan is honestly the sweetest cinnamon roll and doesn't deserve Phil's crap.

I'm sick of that boy. Seducing girls before shattering their hearts. Beating up me and PJ before apologising and saying he wishes things were different.

Even Dan believes he's sorry. Phil Lester is never sorry. He's a coward who can't face his mistakes so instead sleeps around or yells at others.

Gritting my teeth I yell his name. Hus head snaps around to me and I can feel Dan staring at me along with PJ. Sure they're worried about me. I can control myself.

My disorder doesn't mean I'm always dramatic. As long as he listens to me I'll not let it get out of hand. No not again. I'm not going to dissapoint PJ.

"C-chris?" The ebony haired douche stutters. Oh so hes lost for words. For once the biggest slut in school is lost for words. Funny how hes all bite with no bark.

Balling my fists I glare at the cocky blue eyes of Phil Lester. "Dont give me this stuttering crap because quite frankly I'm sick of you!" I say harshly trying not to raise my voice.

"W-wha-"

"Let me SPEAK!"

"Sure its not only you who makes our life a living hell but at least Ollie and Caspar accept what they have done and dont try to make people feel bad for them so they dont grass them up. Make them think that you're a typical good guy wrong crowd type of guy when quite frankly its a you who's making the bad decisions! you wh-"

"Chris please not now" PJ pleads. I know I shouldn't have but I turn my head to meet the tearful eyes of PJ. Crap. Nonono he's scared. No god no.

"I'm sorry PJ" I mumble smiling slightly at him before turning to a wide eyed Phil. His hands shake as he pulls the h of his hoodie.

Thats when I snap. Thats when the boy really gets a taste of his medicine. The moment I flip.

Dan's P.O.V

Tears threaten to spill as Chris raises his voice at Phil. I know Phil's bad but still. No one deserved to be yelled at except for me.

"Chris please not now" begs PJ however Chris doesnt listen to him. Eyes watering I look over at Phil and then the door praying that a teacher comes by.

No he deserved this. He hurt me. But I deserve to be hurt. Phil doesnt care. Does he care. Who would care if I died...

Snapping out my thought Chris snaps. And he doesn't just snap. He shatters. Into sharp daggers as piercing as Phil's eyes.

"I AM SO TIRED OF MORONS LIKE YOU THINKING THEY RULE THE SCHOOL AND DONT DESERVE CO SEQUENCES!" Chris screams making me cover my eyes and hide my face with my hair.

"Chris please stop" I sob as he continues to yell slurs at Phil and critisize him. No Dan you need to stop reacting like this whenever someone yells.

"Is everything okay Mr Kendall?" A voice rings out as he's about to slap Phil. The voice is music to my ears and as I turn to see Mr Deyes Im not sure if I'm more relieved or scared.

"Everything is FINE!" Chris spits turning towards the teacher with bloodshot eyes. Worry works its way to my throat as I begin to feel light headed.

Drowsy I place my hand on a desk. No Dan stop. Stop being a crybaby. Cry baby. Crybaby. Why won't you grow up already. You are so dumb.

All you want is attention. Stop being lazy Dan. Stop trying to get everyone to feel and for you. Tears run down my face as everyone's yells turn into a high pitched scream.

Falling further into the darkness I swear I hear Phil yelling my name but I ignore it and let the darkness take over, not sure whether I wanted to wake up or not...

Phil's P.O.V

My eyes water as the boy keeps yelling and less curses and offenses to me and  everything he says he's true. I am a coward. I can't face my mistakes.

I guess I truly am I monster if I can't seem to be able to take responsibility or have people know about me. When you do this stuff you can't pick and choose who knows.

I'm not special or different I dont deserve any sympathy. Rather than argue I mess wih my sleeves looking down at the floor. Awkwardly I look over at Dan who's eyes are full of tears.

Suddenly the Voice of Mr Deyes echo's through the room making Chris stop in his tracks. Anger glazed over his eyes and an emotion I've never seen before.

"Chris please calm down!" Mr Deyes says causiously as Chris glares hatefully at him.

Looking over at Dan I see him leaving on the table his eyes glossy and slowly closing. What? "Dan?!" I Yell lunging towards him. Ignoring Chris yelling at me to "Fuck myself" I run over to the boy shoving my arms beneath him as he falls to the ground.

"YOU MONSTER!" Chris screams as PJ tries pulling him back his arms securely around his waist. His arms thrash against a struggling PJ whose pushing him towards the door where a crows is beginning to form.

Panic sets in as I look at the limp figure turning pale and glossy with tears and sweat. "Chris shut up a minute!" I snap as I scoop up the boy.

Trying my best to ignore on lookers I sprint down to the nurses office making little effort to keep Dan still.

Fuck fuck fuck. Not again. This boy is fragile. And I destroyed him. And now I need to fix him.

Chris' P.O.V

Violently flailing my arms and legs PJs grip only tightens around my waist shoving me towards the door. Trying to scream I'm soon stopped by the crowd outside.

Some laughed some concerned but most were shocked as I screamed and kicked PJ mindlessly trying to make him let go.

"Chris stop now!" PJ comands pushing me against the sinks in the bathrooms. His hands push my shoulders into the will making me frown and squirm.

I need to get away but how. Wait. I know. Quickly I stop squirming and plaster a frown on my face. Pjs eyes light up at my new "calm" state and he finally releases my shoudlera and takes a step back.

As he leans over to hug me I boot him in the shins before sprinting out the door leaving him collapsed on the floor. The wind slaps my face as I run towards the exit.

Teachers yell my name but I ignore them until I round a corner and come face to face with PJ. Gasping I push past him before sprinting out the doors.

Oblivious to traffic I run across the road frantically looking for a direction to go in and thats when it happens.

As I look back onto the road I scream as Pj runs towards me before a blood cuddling scream fills the air.

In slow motion I watch his body crumple under the car and the driver slam the breaks. Choking on sobs I stare at the bleeding boy...

Oh shet what happens next?

So this is kind of a longer a//n but I wanted to say I'm going over my chapters and editing them to make a more gradual romance between Dan and Phil also I'm planning on using the crash as a way for Dan and Phil to get closer as Phil helps Dan but I'm not sure.

I'm not even sure if people enjoy my book or think its going too fast in the relationship or too slow with any drama.

But if the two person crowd wants drama I will nto refrain from throwing in a few plot twist *cheeky wink*

AND FINALLY HOLY JESUS AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE RESDS LIKE I KNOW ITS ONLY 300 IN TOTAL BUT IM FRAKAING THE FRICK OUT

-Chloe needs to calm the fuck down