Found out

Chapter nine

Lauren's POV

It had been 2 days since me and Camila first kissed and days had been blissful ever since. Every thing we did now, was for the first time and it felt exactly how it should feel. We were enjoyed each other's company more than ever before. I felt safer when Camila was around, like no matter what happened, I would always be protected as long as she was by my side. She was able to put a smile back on my face in an instant, no matter how bad I'm feeling, no matter how much I miss my family or my girls. In such a short space of time, Camila had come to mean so much to me. She was more than just a girl to me now, she was hope, hope that things won't be this way forever.

The younger girl had been at uni all morning but was due to return at around 2. I knew she'd be bringing home some sort of essay or song plan which I was excited to hear about. The fact that both me and Camila had a passion for music is something that boosts our relationship a lot, giving us something to discuss a lot of the time. Her voice was something that I could never get enough of, whether it be humming a tune or talking passionately about her uni course, it never failed to amaze me. Although I'd never gotten to hear Camila's songs for myself, her way with words tells me that they're probably a lot better than anything I could ever write. I only hoped that one day she would trust me enough to let me hear one of them.

Camila arrived home at about 3, despite her uni lecture finishing at 1:30 and entered her bedroom where I was on her bed writing away in my journal.

"Hey babe, how was uni?" I spoke as she entered the room.

"Good thankyou, sorry I'm late, I stopped by at Dinah's after for an hour" she answered, sitting next to me on the bed and kissing my cheek.

"Don't apologies" i laughed, causing her to smile in response.

"Tell me about her" I spoke, realising I hadn't heard much about Camila's best friend.

"Who? Dinah?" She questioned and I simply nodded.

"Well, she's loud, she's funny. She can be a little overbearing at times. She's one of those people that will stop at nothing to cheer you up, no matter how much they make a fool out of themselves in the process. I've known her since we were around 4 and I guess she's much more of a sister to me now. Anyone that doesn't know her tends to find her kinda intimidating, I guess she puts on a sort of confident front, but trust me, she's a little softie once you get to know her" Camila smiled and continued "sorta like you I suppose" she finished.

"How so?" I answered.

"Well, to everyone else you seem so confident and self assured, but you're a softie really, I mean you're vulnerable, just not a lot of people get to see that side of you" she spoke and I raised my eyebrow. "Except me, I get to see it, and I'm lucky as hell for that" she finished and I smiled.

"You're cute" I spoke, ruffling Camila's hair. "Dinah though, she sounds amazing"

"She is, but what about ally and Normani, tell me about them? I mean as long as you don't mind talking about it" the younger girl stated, seeming genuinely interested.

"Well ally's like a mum, she always likes to make sure everyone's looked after and well cared for. She also never fails to let you know when you've done something wrong but in a 'Jesus sees that as a sin' sort of way" I laughed at the thought of the girl. "But she still supports you no matter what decision you make, even if you know it's the wrong one" I finished. "As for normani, if you look sass up in the dictionary you'd see the girls name. She's confident and self assured and always seems to do the right thing, no matter what situation. She also has a cheeky side, she loves joking and laughing and tries her best to be as positive as she possibly can whenever she can. Not to mention she's insanely beautiful, which I'm guessing you already know considering you've watched our performances, right?" I laughed and Camila rolled her eyes.

"Yeah, now that you mention it, they could have picked a better girl to come live with me. I mean I've had to settle for you when I could have had ally or normani in my bed tonight" Camila joked before winking.

"You're a little shit you know that right?" I replied before continuing. "What about Dinah? What does she look like?" I questioned and Camila took to her phone, presumably to find a picture. Dinah was beautiful, her hair was blonde and her skin tanned, much like I had pictured her.

"Damn, I got stuck with the wrong best friend" I spoke after seeing the picture and Camila rolled her eyes again.

"Do you still miss them? You know your friends and family? I guess you probably do but you don't really mention it as much anymore" Camila questioned and I gave her a soft smile.

"More than you'd ever know, but I guess I won't see them any quicker by getting sad about it all the time. Plus, I have you now, you help me feel better whenever I do think about them" I smiled and Camila laid back between my legs and entwined our fingers.

"You know, I never thought that old Jauregui charm would work on me but hey, you got me" Camila replied and laughed.

"Babe, the charm always works" I replied, smirking as I did.

"I can't believe I spent so long hating you, who'd have known we'd be here a month on huh" Camila spoke and I smiled.

"Amazing what turning on the water works can do for you" I replied, referring to the time I came to Camila crying a few weeks ago. The room dropped silent and I finally built enough courage to ask something I'd been wondering for a while now.

"Camila, can I ask you something?" I spoke and Camila nodded. "Can you tell me about your sister? I mean if it upsets you, you don't need to, no pressure" I finished, slightly nervous for her reaction.

"Sofi was like a little ray of sunshine I guess. She was like a little princess that could just make absolutely anyone happy no matter how sad they were. She was more than a sister to me I guess, she was like my best friend. She was my inspiration, she's what most of my songs about, hence why I don't tend to show people them. When she died" Camila paused and cleared her throat, I rubbed my thumb against her hand and she continued. "When she died, i didn't just lose my sister, I lost my best friend, my inspiration and the biggest source of happiness in my life, and the worse part of it all, it was probably my fault" Camila spoke and looked down to her lap.

"Why'd you think that?" I questioned, intrigued as to why the younger girl felt this way.

"I was walking her home when it happened. If I'd have just watched her a little better then she'd still be here today, she'd be sat next to me, making everyone smile. I just feel like it should have been me Lauren, not her, me" Camila finished, her voice cracking at the end.

"Hey, don't say that. Listen I'm sorry for asking you to talk about it but I don't want you to ever think that this would be any better had that been you. You know, I always believed everything happened for a reason, as awful as it is, maybe Sofi was taken so young for a reason. I mean, she's clearly left quite the imprint on your life and if you ask me, it normally takes people a lifetime to leave the mark she did in such a short time" I smiled, trying to reassure the younger girl. "Besides, i wouldn't say she's completely gone, I mean the way you talk about her makes me think that she lives with you everyday, and that's pretty special if you ask me" I finished and pulled the girl closer to my chest.

"Thankyou, really Lauren, I don't know what I ever did without you" she spoke smiling up at me.

"Probably exactly what you're doing now, except without this" I answered kissing her on the forehead and Camila just smiled.

"Lauren?" She spoke.

"Yeah babe?" I replied.

"Why are you here?" She spoke, asking the one question i was waiting for her to ask.

"You really want to know?" I replied and she just nodded.

"Well you better get comfy, because it's a pretty damn long story"