Found out

Chapter twenty one

Camila's POV

One month. 4 weeks since Lauren walked out on me and I haven't heard a single word from her since. 31 days since she left without even saying goodbye. 744 hours spent trying to figure out what the hell I did to deserve this. I still couldn't understand it, how this was so easy for her and yet so hard for me. I hardly left my house now, I hated having to speak to people and pretend everything was fine and that it was just like any other day. My parents told me I'm still not allowed to tell anyone Lauren stayed with us because then they'd know about my dads job and they'd know we tried to protect her. This means walking around like nothing happened, like the name Lauren Jauregui doesn't shatter my heart slightly more every time I hear it.

Dinah was coming round today because I'd pretty much been avoiding her for the past month as my best friend knew me well enough to know when something was wrong. It's not that I don't trust Dinah, it's just if I say everything that's happened out loud, it's makes it a whole lot more real than it feels right now. It still hadn't sunk in, I kept expecting Lauren to just walk through the door one day and in to my arms like nothing happened and we were as perfect as before, but one month on and I was still lying here waiting. Explaining things to Dinah would mean I'd have to relive everything that happened between the two of us, from our first I love you to the day she left, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for that yet. A knock on my front door broke me out of my thoughts and I headed downstairs to answer it.

"Hey Mila! I missed you, where have you been hiding these past few weeks?" She questioned whilst heading back up the stairs, not bothering to wait for an invite in.

"Hey, I've just been busy with uni and stuff, I've missed you too though" I replied, forcing a smile whilst I did so. Dinah seemed to buy it and soon began filling me in on her dance performance which I missed, not wanting to leave the house that day.

"I can't believe I didn't tell you, Lauren's back, turns out she just pulled an ed Sheeran and went away to write for a while" she spoke and the older girls name was all I needed to hear for me to break down into tears.

"Woah, hey Mila what's wrong?" My best friend tried to comfort me but I couldn't stop. Lauren was back to her old life whilst I was here, crying into Dinah's arms. Hearing the older girls name from my best friends mouth reminded me just how much I missed her, how much I loved her and the aching in my heart returned.

"She's gone Dinah" I cried out causing the younger girl to pull me in to her further, rubbing circles in my back.

"I know Mila, but it wasn't your fault, it was..." she began but I cut her off, realising she'd gotten the wrong idea.

"Not Sofi, Lauren, Lauren's gone" I tried to speak, my voice shaky the whole time.

"Wait, Lauren who?" She replied, appearing more and more confused the more I spoke. I realised that now was a better time than ever to tell my best friend exactly what happened and it wasn't going to be easy, but I had to do it.

"Lauren Jauregui" I spoke, trying to calm myself as I did.

"Okay, just start from the beginning mila, what happened?" She spoke and I took a deep breathe before beginning the story.

Dinah's POV

"Wait so, this was all going on and I had absolutely no idea the whole time?" I questioned, honestly confused how my favourite artist was having a love affair with my best friend without me knowing a single thing about it. I tried to keep my fangirl side in tact so that I could be supportive of Camila but on the inside, I was freaking out.

"No idea, you were even in the same house as her at one point" she spoke and I held back the urge to scream at the fact that me and Lauren Jauregui were in the same house at the same time.

"Didn't she say why she left at least?" I questioned, genuinely curious why she would leave after the time her and Mila spent together.

"Nope, nothing. She just left this note" Camila spoke before handing me a note with the words 'I'm sorry, I will always love you' written on there.

"Well if she loved you, why'd she leave like that?" I spoke, just as confused as Camila was at this point. As much as I admired Lauren, I hated her for breaking my best friends heart without even having a good reason for it.

"I've been asking myself that everyday for a month now Dinah, but it doesn't look like she's going to change her mind any time soon" she replied with a sad smile. I hated seeing Camila like this, she was normally so happy and bubbly but right now, she looked broken. Camila had never been like this with anyone, she never kissed or dated anyone and it worried me that she would have a bad perception of love forever after this.

"I know it's hard, but it's her loss chancho. Seriously, she won't do much better than you, you liked her when she didn't have fame or money and that's hard to come across now"
I spoke, trying my best to comfort my best friend in her time of need. Camila rarely cried in front of me, which was why I knew this was serious. I still had a lot of questions as to what happened to make her fall in love with the same girl she use to practically kill me for mentioning in the past, but I knew this was the wrong time to ask.

"Why does it hurt so much Dinah?" She replied and my heart broke hearing her voice crack half way through the sentence.

"Because you're in love Mila, its as simple and as complicated as that" I replied, offering her a soft smile as I did so. "I know it's hard Camila but you got this okay and I'm gonna be right here by your side through it all, I promise" I spoke before embracing my best friend into my arms and holding her as tight as I could. From the corner of my eye I saw her phone light up with a twitter DM on it.

"Mila, you got a DM" I spoke before grabbing her phone off of the bed.

"Who's it from?" She questioned as I read the name on the screen.

"Ariana grande?"