Found out

Chapter twenty five

Lauren's POV

I was backstage at the billboard women in music awards after finishing our performance of 'that's my girl' which went surprisingly well considering the lack of rehearsal we had for it. We were one of the first to perform meaning that we could head to our seats straight after to watch the rest of the performers. I was in pretty high spirits today, considering I'd finally grown up and decided to face my problems by explaining things to Camila. I'd been up most of the night planning what I was going to say to the younger girl when I flew to the UK tomorrow to see her. I booked the flight as soon as my conversation with ally and Normani had come to an end and I had been anticipating it ever since. I still wasn't 100% sure what exactly I was going to say, but all I knew was I was in love with...

"Camila Cabello" I heard from the stage. This was not happening right now.

The presenter walked off and Camila took her place in the middle of the stage. She was wearing a white dress that flowed right to her feet and her hair was falling perfectly down the side of her face. The background of the stage was black and white to contrast with the red rose petals slowly falling from above her, it made the set look all the more dramatic. Camila looked like a completely different person from the last time I saw her, she looked calm and confident, like she belonged on the stage. I looked to the side and saw both the girls, their jaws dropped as they looked at me worried, as though I was going to burst out crying any minute, and they were right. This was the last place I expected to see the younger girl and I didn't know how much I could handle being in the same room as her without having a few hours to prepare myself. She was stood in the middle of the stage, staring intensely down to the floor when the music began.

Why did you leave me here to burn?
I'm way too young to be this hurt
I feel doomed in hotel rooms
Staring straight up at the wall
Counting wounds and I am trying to numb them all

Do you care, do you care?
Why don't you care?
I gave you all of me
My blood, my sweat, my heart, and my tears
Why don't you care, why don't you care?
I was there, I was there, when no one was
Now you're gone and I'm here

She sang with so much passion and I already felt the tears trailing down my cheek. Everyone around me seemed in complete awe of the younger girls voice, but the lyrics were what hit me most. Camila was able to write these words about me, all her pain and heartache onto a piece of paper, which I was now being faced with.

I have questions for you
Number one, tell me who you think you are
You got some nerve trying to tear my faith apart
(I have questions for you)
Number two, why would you try and play me for a fool?
I should have never ever ever trusted you (I have questions)
Number three, why weren't you, who you swore that you would be?
I have questions, I got questions haunting me
I have questions for you
I have questions for you (I have questions)
I have questions for you

My, my name was safest in your mouth
And why'd you have to go and spit it out?
Oh, your voice, it was the most familiar sound
But it sounds so dangerous to me now

Camila made eye contact with me for the first time in her performance during her last few words. Her eyes locked directly with mine as she raised her eyebrow. The pain in her eyes as she sang the words was enough for me to see the hatred the younger girl was feeling for me as she continued with her performance.

I have questions for you
Number one, tell me who you think you are
You got some nerve trying to tear my faith apart
(I have questions for you)
Number two, why would you try and play me for a fool?
I should have never ever ever trusted you
I have questions for you
I have questions for you
I have questions for you (I have questions)
I have questions for you