Found out

Chapter eleven

Camila's POV

Ever since Lauren opened up to me a couple of weeks back about why she had to leave the country, we'd been closer than ever. It was much easier for me to provide support to the older girl now that I understood her situation a little better. I wasn't annoyed at lauren in the slightest for what she did, in fact, I completely understood it. Although she may have gone about it the wrong way, knowing Lauren for the last two months has shown me how soft the girl is and so hearing she did this for her girls and her family is not surprising. If anything, hearing about it made my attraction for the older girl grow even stronger as I'd been worried about what else it could possibly be. Me and Lauren were closer than ever before and I was loving every second of it.

I'd been thinking a lot about my sexuality over the past few weeks. Before this, i'd never really been attracted to anyone so it was difficult for me to figure out whether I was gay, bi or anything else. People always seemed to have a label for it, i hoped i'd figure out mine at some point soon. Right now though, all i knew was that i was falling for the green eyed girl, and it was an unfamiliar feeling that excited me everyday. Everyday i spent getting to know more about lauren was a blessing and i found myself slowly learning more and more about the girl. I loved seeing her smile and hearing her laugh. Each day, she would find a new way to surprise me and discovering more about the girl had become one of my new favourite hobbies. I also loved the fact that me and Lauren could both sing and write together, our voices seemed to work perfectly in unison and I loved it. She was much more passionate about the art than I had originally thought and I loved the way her face lit up when hearing a note or a lyric she liked.

Lauren returned from downstairs with two glasses of orange juice and sat back on the bed beside me. She handed me my glass and I smiled.

"Thankyou babe" I spoke before taking a drink.

"No problem, what do you wanna watch?" She questioned, signalling to the TV.

"Actually, I had something different in mind" I smirked before leaning and connecting my lips with the older girl. Our lips found a steady pace, a feeling i had come accustomed to over the past few weeks. After several minutes, i propped myself up and climbed onto the older girl so I was straddling her.

"Hey, what's gotten into you today?" She questioned with a smirk at how forward I was being. Lauren was normally the one to initiate our impromptu makeout sessions but not today.

"Is it so wrong for me to want to appreciate my girl?" I spoke, rolling my eyes.

"Your girl?" She questioned and raised her eyebrow.

"Yep your girl, I mean that's what this is right, you're not sneaking off in the night to have a love affair with any other girls?" I replied whilst laughing.

"Well I guess I don't know what this is, but it's a good distraction from everything else that's for sure" she replied. What?

"What do you mean?" I questioned, hoping I'd misunderstood what she said.

"Well, we're not together or anything. I just mean it's a good distraction from being away from everyone" she spoke before trying to lean in again. She's got to be kidding. I pulled back and climbed off her lap.

"What are you doing? What's wrong?" She questioned as I felt tears threaten to fall from my eyes. How could I have been so stupid? Thinking a girl like Lauren would ever want me?

"Please get out" I spoke, trying to refrain from tears flowing freely from my eyes as I stood from my bed.

"Babe, what's wrong? Hey you know I didn't mean it like that, I just meant you help distract me. But that's not why I'm doing this" she spoke but at this point, I wasn't listening.

"I said get out Lauren" I repeated and she stood to her feet and headed for the door. It was finally hitting me that Lauren had been using me, she was alone and I was convenient, but I'd been too distracted to see that.

"Camila I'm sorry, please just hear me out, you know I didn't mean that baby, come on" she spoke and I slammed the door in her face. I locked the door behind her. She tried once to open it before knocking on it sternly. "Camila please let me back in, let me explain, I didn't mean it like that, come on you know i didn't" she spoke and the tears began flowing freely. I couldn't believe I'd been so stupid thinking Lauren felt the same about me as I did about her. She needed attention and I was stupid enough to give it to her.

I heard my parents come upstairs, clearly worried about the level of noise. They asked Lauren what was going on to which she politely said nothing before heading back to her room. I slid down the door, sobbing into my hands thinking about what Lauren had said. I knew it wouldn't last, things were too good to be true. Why would Lauren Jauregui ever fall for me? I'm so stupid. I go from not liking anyone to liking someone who only wanted me for attention. I trusted her, I spoke to her about everything, about my songs, about Sofi, and all this time she was fucking using me. I knew I shouldn't have let her in.

Lauren's POV

Id been in my room for about an hour now, just thinking about what I did to upset Camila. I know exactly why the younger girl got upset and I regret my words more than anything. I considered going to her room and explaining everything but I knew I should leave her to calm down before trying to explain anything. I don't even know why I said what I said truthfully, I literally didn't mean it in the slightest. I'd always found it difficult to fall for people, probably why I did say that, considering I seemed to ruin it every time I did get close to anyone. However, Camila was different, even if I wasn't in this house, she's the sort of girl I'd probably end up falling for anyway. She's genuine, kind and funny and now I'd probably fucked up any chance I had at being with her.

Camila seemed really upset back there and I can't help but want to run in there and comfort the younger girl. Once I left, her parents asked me what was wrong but I simply said nothing as me and Camila agreed not to let Sinu and Alejandro know about our relationship. Although, we probably didn't have to worry about that now considering Camila would most likely hate me forever. I hated that she was in there thinking that I was using her for attention because I'm alone here, if anything, it's the complete  opposite. I promised myself I'd stay away from Camila and still ended up falling head over heals for the girl. I hoped that she'd forgive me as the thought of losing the brown eyed girl was something I didn't even want to imagine. We'd become so close over the past few weeks and I'd hate for that to end because I said some stupid things I didn't even mean.

I knew I needed to make it up to Camila, needed to show her just how much she meant to me. How i'd do that, i wasn't sure, but whatever it was, it needed to be big.