Found out

Chapter twenty eight

Lauren's POV

It was the following day and I was sat on the doorstep outside Camila's house, waiting for her to get home. I knew her schedule pretty much off by heart now so I knew she finished uni at about 1 today which was just over an hour ago. I thought about giving up and just heading home but Camila was worth waiting for and I was determined to do so. I knew that when she did arrive, she probably wouldn't want to speak to me, she made that one perfectly clear yesterday. However, I wasn't prepared to give up that easily and decided to wait it out for her to arrive back.

It was now 3:15 and the Cabello's car pulled into the drive, making me instantly stand up. Out walked Sinu and Alejandro with a look of shock on their face, making me realise I hadn't seen them since I left. I walked hesitantly towards them, unsure of how they would react knowing I was here. Sinu instantly wrapped me up into a warm hug and I smiled into it, glad that she was being so kind to me after what I did.

"Lauren, long time no see, how've you been sweetheart?" Alejandro spoke to me and I offered him a soft smile.

"Hey Alejandro, I've been ok thankyou, I missed you both though" I replied genuinely.

"We missed you too, what's brought you back?" Sinu questioned and I wondered whether or not to give an honest answer.

"I actually just came to see Camila, do you know when she'll be back?" I answered honestly whilst heading inside with the two of them.

"She shouldn't be long mija, but until then, you can go wait in her room if you like?" Sinu offered leading me up to Camila's room where Leo was on the bed cuddled up.

"Thankyou" I said, sitting on the bed. Sinu made a move for the door. Before she reached it, she turned around and gave me an unreadable look.

"Lauren" she spoke in a serious tone.

"Yeah?"

"Are you in love with my daughter?" She asked, taking me aback slightly. Of course I knew the answer, but I was unsure of sinus reaction to it.

"Yes" I said simply not knowing what else to say. With that, Sinu offered me a soft smile before slipping out of the door. I wondered if telling her the truth was the best idea but I didn't want to lie to the woman who was like my mother for so many months. I didn't know how long I'd be waiting so grabbed my copy of milk and honey that I'd left here when I moved out. As soon as I picked it up however, I noticed brightly coloured lines throughout the pages, it looked as though someone had been highlighting lines in it. As I read further, I realised it must have been Camila and these weren't just random lines.

It is your blood
In my veins
Tell me how I'm
Supposed to forget

I read the first highlighted words I came across, almost feeling Camila's pain as I did so.

The night after you left
I woke up so broken
The only place to put the pieces
We're the bags under my eyes

I flicked through the pages, stopping to read every time I saw a bring colour, the last one having a particular effect.

Stay
I whispered
As you
Shut the door behind you

I'd read these poems a million times before but the meaning to them had completely changed after this.

"Lauren? What're you doing?" Camila spoke making me jump slightly. I hadn't noticed tears that had made their way down my face during reading the book, but Camila definitely did.

"Erm, sorry I was just, I was waiting for you so I was just erm reading this" I replied nervously, gesturing to the book in my hands.

"You don't have to say sorry, what're you doing here?" The younger girl questioned, throwing her bag onto the floor and sitting on the end of the bed.

"I wanted to apologise" I spoke, not looking up from my lap the entire time.

"Right?" Camila said, growing impatient.

"Please just give me 5 minutes to explain and if you want me to go after that, I promise I will" I pleaded and Camila only nodded in response, signifying that I could continue. "I know I fucked up Camila, and I know I don't understand what you're going through because I haven't been here to try and understand and I'm truly sorry for that. You have no idea how much I regret leaving you that day, I wanted to come back, to come and explain everything to you but I had no explanation. I didn't know what to say, I don't know why I left, I guess I was just scared that it would be hard for us to be together if I was in Miami, so I just decided to avoid the scenario all together. I know it was stupid, that what I said makes absolutely no logical sense but please believe me when I say it's the biggest mistake of my life" I took a deep breathe before continuing. "I love you Camila, with every ounce of me and I hate that you're probably doubting that I do because I was stupid enough to throw away the one thing that made me happier than anything else" I finished, looking at the younger girl with pleading eyes.

"What do you want from me Lauren? For me to come running back to you because you've decided you need me now? It doesn't work like that" Camila informed me.

"I know it doesn't and I'm not asking you to do that. All I ask is that you give me a chance to show you that I'm serious about us, as much as I've lead you to believe otherwise recently" I replied, unable to read Camila's expression.

"And why should I?" Camila challenged, clearly wanting me to put up a fight.

"Because I love you, and I'd like to think you still love me too, no matter how shitty I've been, surely that's worth something" I answered, trying my best to make the younger girl realise I was serious about this.

"And what about the fact that we live like 4ooo miles away from each other?" She spoke, clearly apprehensive about the situation.

"That won't be a problem anymore, I moved into my apartment in London last night, along with the other two girls and our families" I informed the brown eyed girls, dangling the keys to my apartment in front of her.

"What? Why?" She spoke, clearly shocked by the gesture.

"Well first of all, I don't particularly want to live in a state controlled by one of the biggest dicks on this planet. We'd been talking about moving since i got back to Miami. Secondly, it means I'm closer to you and I guess that's a start" I explained and Camila raised her eyebrow.

"And what if I said I never wanted to see you again?" She challenged my reasoning.

"Well it was a chance I was willing to take" I smiled, hoping that my answer was adequate enough.

"I don't forgive you lauren, but I miss you. I want us to be friends ok and I mean friends. Don't push your luck Jauregui" Camila spoke and I felt a smile spread across my face at the brown eyed girls offer.

"Seriously camz, thankyou so much" I exclaimed, seeing a smile spread across Camila's face as I did so.

"You're not off the hook though Jauregui, don't cross the line or I swear, this is done for good" she warned, gesturing between the two of us.

"Yes ma'am, I got this don't worry" I smiled and saw her brown eyes light up for what felt like the first time in forever.

A/N
Finally! This chapter meant taking a break from binge watching the new season of OITNB (which is amazing by the way!) but was so worth it! I hope you enjoyed!