Found out

Chapter twenty six

Camila's POV

It had been 3 days since my performance at the billboard awards and I arrived back in the UK late the previous night. Since the morning after the awards, I'd received non stop messages and calls from Lauren, none of which i answered. I started off reading the messages, but the constant I miss you's, I'm sorry's and I love you's made me realise it probably wasn't the best idea. There had been a few times where I'd been close to answering her calls, so close that if it would have rung once more, all morals would have gone straight out of the window. However, I knew answering would just make things a lot more complicated than they already were, she'd made her bed and now she had to lie in it.

Lauren's words from the other night were still constantly replaying in my head, no matter how much I tried to block them out. The pain in the green eyed girls voice broke me every time I thought about it, despite her drunken state. It would have been a lot easier for me to just run back into the older girls arms and forget anything happened, but I wouldn't allow myself to fall again. If I had learnt anything from this whole situation, it was that my incapability to fall in love before Lauren was probably for the best. I didn't regret falling in love with Lauren, because it taught me that love just wasn't for me, it's not worth the heart ache you feel at the end of it. I leant love was a pleasant experience, up until you experience the other side of it, the side that leaves you completely broken, the side that I didn't ever want to be faced with again.

"Hey Mila, how you feeling?" Dinah spoke before entering my room and sitting on the sofa next to me.

"Hey china, I'm ok, been better" I replied honestly. I'd been a lot more open with Dinah about my emotions these past few days as I realised keeping things in probably wouldn't help the situation.

"Ok well I brought McDonald's and the lion king so you better prepare to feel a whole lot better very quickly" my best friend spoke, placing the brown bag into my lap.

"Mija, you've got post" my mum shouted from downstairs and I asked Dinah to go collect it for me, not wanting to get up from my bed anytime soon.

"Looks like some sort of CD Mila, ring any bells?" Dinah spoke and I sent her a questioning look, not understanding what it could be.

"Well there's only one way to find out" I replied before popping the DVD into my laptop and hitting play. On the screen appeared Lauren's two best friends Ally and Normani and Dinah instantly squealed at the sight.

"Hey Camila, I know this is probably really weird considering you've never spoken to either of us before in your life but we wanted to talk to you about something. Please don't turn this video off before you hear us out, no matter how shitty you think our music is which by the way, is a debatable matter."

Normani joked and Dinah laughed a little more than she needed to.

"Well, first off, we want to say sorry, mainly for what you've been going through these past few weeks after Lauren came back to Miami. We understand what she did was really shit and don't think we've hesitated to tell Lauren this on numerous occasions. Ever since Lauren got back, she hasn't been like what she was before, she's changed and we hate seeing her like this. I know she's given you no reason to hear her out but we just can't stand seeing our girl like this and we wanted to at least try help. We figured the first thing to do is to show you how boringly emotional she's been these past few weeks, exhibit A.

Video clip

"Yo, Lauren wanna come watch a movie?" Normani shouted from the sofa in the apartment. Lauren had her earphones in her ears and a book in front of her and so didn't reply. Normani decided to take a different approach and settled for throwing a pillow at her in an attempt to again her attention, big mistake.

"What the fuck mani?" Lauren snapped in reply. "Just leave me the fuck alone"

End of video clip

"So this was the day when Lauren didn't speak a word to us all day. When we asked later that day what was wrong, she replied with 'you're not camz' and we're guessing that's you. Anyway, exhibit B"

Video clip

"Lauren maybe we should get you to bed" ally spoke to Lauren the night after the billboard awards.

"I don't want to go to bed. I need to see her ally. Take me to Camila, please I can't do this without her" Lauren replied, uncontrollably crying into Normani's shoulder.

"I know babe but it's not that simple, we'll figure something out though I promise" Normani spoke in an attempt to comfort Lauren.

"No Mani you don't understand, I love her"

End of video clip

"As you probably saw, Lauren had a few too many fizzy pops that night but it doesn't make what she said any less true. Ever since, all we've heard is how much she loves you and needs you back so please don't think what she said was any form of a drunken mistake. The last clip is probably the worst, we've never seen Lauren like this before, exhibit C"

Video clip

All three girls were on stage performing when the music for 'no way' started playing, a song from their second album. During Lauren's verse, she falls to her knees in tears. She stops singing the verse completely and puts her head into her hands. Normani attempts to comfort her, running her hand through the girls hair and Lauren stands back up, continuing with the song.

End of video clip

"So we know you're probably still super mad with her and that doesn't make up for what she did, but we didn't want you thinking Lauren wasn't suffering from this. She's stubborn as hell and is playing the old 'Camila deserves better than me' card but the question is whether you want anyone else. We don't know you Camila, we don't know how you felt for Lauren, if you loved her, but if you love her as much as she does you, then please give her a chance. We're not asking for you to forgive her and instantly go back to how you were before, but please let her explain. We understand completely whatever your decision is, but please just consider it"

The video camera switched off and I felt tears slowly making their way down my cheek.

"What you gonna do mila?" Dinah spoke from beside me, making me jump slightly. I'd forgotten the younger girl was there as I was so invested in the video. By the end of it, I'd made my decision.

"I'm gonna call her" I confirmed and my best friend offered me a soft smile. "It looks like we're both just suffering here, may as well at least give her a chance to explain herself" I finished before picking up my phone and dialling her number. It only rang once before I heard her voice from the other end of the phone.

"Camz?" She spoke, sounding worn out as she did so.

"Yeah its me" I replied, not knowing what else to say, I suppose I should have prepared more for this.

"Hey, how are you? Are you okay?" She questioned, sounding nervous as she did.

"I'm good, listen, I don't know what's going on here but all I do know is I miss you and I want to give you a chance to explain" I explained, being completely honest in the process.

"I'm booking a plane now, I'll be there tomorrow" she answered and I smiled slightly at how the older girl would put her life on pause to come see me. "And thankyou Camila, I really appreciate it" she finished and I hung up the phone, ending our conversation there.