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IRIS

ALLY BURST through my door with some ben and jerry's with her. "this is for you babes." she said handing me the ice cream and me giving her a smile and a thank you.

my siblings already knew what happened. but i begged them not to tell a single shit to our parents, because if they did, they'd end up making me transfer. and i dont plan on leaving ally and the twins anytime soon. but my siblings insisted to teach a lesson to the person who ends up trying to hurt me again.

"so spill. what exactly happened?" ally laid beside me on my bed as i started to explain to her everything. "i was just washing my hands on the first day when the girl came and started to tell me to fuck off and stay away from max. she kept saying he is hers and i kept making it clear that me and max are just friends. but she came to attack me again earlier because i still hung out with max." i said as ally tried to figure out what to do with the girl.

"oh and she told me that max was just using me and all that shit. and that im no match for him and he would never go for someone like me. which i do kinda agree to. not the part wherein he was using me. i know max would never do that. but like— ya know, the fact that im not match for him, hence the recent tweet." i said as i took another spoonful of ice cream.

"we both know max is so genuine with you so i know he aint using you. but the fuck iris? uhm are you crazy??? max would never go for someone like HER. shes a bitch. max would defo go for someone like you i swear. even harvey thinks max likes you already!" she said

"i dont know, im just a mess. i cant even bother replying to him." im scared to face max. i dont know why. "iris, are you starting to have legitimate feelings for max?" ally asked smirking at me.

"wha— NO! omg no!" i replied instantly. "hmm really??" i dont know. do i? he is like too good for me. and as if he will like me that way.

"iris... do you??" ally asked once again. i sighed. i wasn't sure. "i dont know als, max makes me happy. he really does. i feel safe when im with him, and i trust him a lot. not just that, i really care for him. maybe that's why i decided to shut up about the incident. i dont know. i just dont want him to worry much about me and i dont want to be a burden to him." i said trying to prevent myself from crying.

"but do you? because i feel like you do. you literally just said those things. it would be stupid to say that you dont have feelings for max when you actually do." she did have a point.

"but im nothing he wants. im not his type als. besides dont forget the fact that i used to be a hardcore fan. ughhh als this is ridiculous. he will never think of me that way!" by now i was really bothered by this. does he like me? will he actually even like me? fuck maybe i do like him.

"iris no, have you seen him act around you? harvey told me he literally isn't like that to anyone but you. i will bet you some sushi that he likes you." she said laughing causing me to smile a little. "okay fine maybe i do like him. but please let this stay between us." i asked as i ate some more ice cream.

"hmm okay okay. now what do you plan to do with your feelings for max and your situation right now. you're practically ignoring the guy and he cares for you!" she said smacking my arm.

"owww— well im for sure not going to tell him i like him any sooner. and im probably going to just keep a distance for a while. i just feel so bad and i feel like it's going to be better that way? i dont know als im a mess right now. first few days into a new school and this happens to me! fuck it!" i was angry. sad. broken. weak. i dont fucking know anymore.

and the last thing i want is to be a burden to max.