Brokenhearted (a Taylor Caniff fanfic )

Chapter 10

As soon as today's event was over I headed straight for the hotel, I planned to block out the world today. I had no more motivation to do anything after my encounter with Carter. How could someone who saved my life be so upset with me after meeting them a day? it only took a day for me to hurt him, a day for me to ruin any chance of a friendship with him, a day for me to hurt the ones I care most about. However, it would only take a moment for me to take my own life... it would only take a second and I would be finished. I wouldn't be hurting any more. Most importantly I wouldn't be a me to hurt anyone else. All my pain and suffering would be over in just a single second.

I laid in my bed as these thoughts ran through my head. It's time for me to go. I don't want to hurt anyone else. Tears flooded from my eyes as the pain in my chest became stronger, all that hurt rising for within me. I went to my bag and searched for the bottle of pain pills I had brought, I often get migraines so I always have medication with me. My fingers found the bottle, the pills rattling around inside the bottle. There were about 20 inside, that would be plenty to finish me off. I opened the lid an my tears rushed down my face, just as I was about to poor the lot in my mouth a knock came from the door. I jumped and rushed to out the pills away.

"Coming." I yelled as I tried to hide the evidence of my tears. I peeped out the hole to see it was Cameron in front of my door. I opened it slowly and his face lit up the moment he saw me. He put his arms around me for a hug and I obliged hugging him back. He pulled away moments later.

"I was worried. I saw you run out of the venue, I came to you as quick as I could. I was so scared you were going to hurt yourself. Why were you so upset? oh god! Did Carter say something to you?" he rambled on. I shook him fiercely trying to get him to stop.

"Cameron, look at me. I'm okay. I'm right here. Calm down. It's okay. And to answer your question. No, Carter did not say anything to me. I'm fine, I was just getting a really bad migraine so I came up here to rest for a bit." I lied. Damn it. Why do I have to lie to the people I care about? i guess the truth is too hard to handle sometimes so we lie to spare others the pain that we feel.

"Okay. Well Haley is in the room with the boys they're playing truth or dare. You want to come?" he asked.

"Honestly, I kinda just want to be alone of that's alright." I responded.

"Okay we can watch a movie in here." He said. I guess he didn't quite comprehend the meaning of being alone.

"I meant by myself Cam" I giggled, trying to make him feel better.

"No way in hell am I leaving you alone. I saw you with the pill bottle Parker. Your curtains are open." He scolded me.

Shit.

My curtains are wide ass open, anyone on the outside could've seen straight in my room. No wonder he's so upset. There no way he's going to leave me alone. I might as well go with him.

"Umm. I was just taking them from my head ache they are like Tylenol." I lied again. "I suppose I could go with you for a bit" he nodded and I prayed that he bought my lies. We headed down the hallway towards his room, I could hear all the laughter from here. Cameron unlocked the door and when we walked in half were staring at us, the other half was staring at Carter. His face however was emotionless. You couldn't read a single emotion on his face or in is eyes. It was blank... Almost dark.

I found a seat between Haley and Taylor before greeting them both.

And the games continue...

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"Okay, Parker." Taylor said turning to me. "truth or dare?" he asked.

I was afraid of the outcome of either. It's Taylor we're talking about here, if I choose dare he's most likely going to have me do something ridiculously insane, if I choose truth the question may cause me to hurt even more people. My mouth spoke before I could finish contemplating what to choose.

"Truth"

"Okay, what is really going on between you and Cameron. We all heard about how they found y'all cuddled on the floor this morning" he smirked.

Well shit.

Well nothing actually happened, but how can I tell them the truth without telling them everything.

"Nothing." I simply said.

"Oh come on. I know better than that" jack j said.

"Nothing happened. Cameron found me last night and I was really upset and he took me down to the beach to talk. When we got back up here Haley was already sleeping and I didn't want to be alone so he let me stay with him. We went to sleep." I looked around at all the boys looking them each in the eye. "Nothing happened. We're just friends."

"Why were you so upset?" Shawn asked sweetly and I didn't quite no how to respond. A loud laugh came from Carter and everyone looked in his direction.

"Come on guys. Don't play dumb." He yelled. "She's a suicidal, fucked up, bitch. You guys don't see all the damn cuts in her arms?" he pointed to my arms. "How can you not? she's fucking disgusting. Freak." And before he could get another word out Cameron punched him right in the face.

"That's enough. You don't know half the shit she's been through so don't you dare say one more negative thing about her. You've crossed a line Carter. And that is fucked up." He scolded him. Carters nose began to run red with blood he got up from his spot and stood directly in front of Cameron, however Cameron towered over him. "you don't want to go there bro." Cameron warned, and Carter stepped back and stormed out of the room. Matt quickly following him.

Carter was right about everything. Every word he said replaying in my head. Every word broke my heart even more. I am a freak. I don't deserve to live. The tears weld up in my eyes and spilled over rushing harder and harder. I got up and ran as fast as I could. I don't know where I was running to or where I was going. I was just running as fast as m short legs would allow. I made it down the stairs, through the lobby, and into the street running faster than before. I was just about to run across the street when I heard a loud cry.

"PARKER WATCH OUT"

And everything went black.

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