Brokenhearted (a Taylor Caniff fanfic )

Chapter 15

I woke up early the next morning. The sun shining brightly through the window blinding my sleepy eyes. I looked over at a sleeping Taylor, I giggled at the sight. He was so cute, his arms were thrown around my waist. He looked peaceful. I slowly unhooked myself from his grip trying not to wake him. I stood to the side of the bed. He stirred slightly before returning to his peaceful sleeping state.

I ran the water for a warm bath. I wasn't much of a bath person, but to be honest I was being lazy and I just wanted to soak and relax in this warm luxurious tub. I threw pieces of my clothing one by one to the corner of the bathroom before stepping in.

After soaking in the warm tub and washing, I stepped out of the tub and wrapped the towel around me. I dried off and then wrapped the towel around my soaking hair. I dressed in some casual comfy clothes. A pair of denim shorts and a Cameron Dallas shirt. I took my hair down from the towel and brushed my long wet locks. I blow dried my hair properly and threw it up In a messy bun leaving my bangs out letting them swoop to the side and tied a navy blue bandana around my head. I didn't bother with make up.

Haley and I were going to get our nails, hair, and makeup done for tonight's formal so there wasn't any point in getting all dressed up. I gathered all my things from the bathroom and neatly put everything back to its original state.

I walked back over the bed where Taylor was still peacefully sleeping. Damn he's so cute. I couldn't help myself. I crawled onto the bed and threw my legs over him straddling him. He stirred a bit, I inched down so my face was close to his. I kissed his cheek before whispering in his ear.

"Taylor. Wake up, sleepy head" I left a soft, slow kiss on his ear and down his neck. He was definitely awake now. I felt his hands grab onto my waist as he pulled me closer, our faces so close our noses were almost touching. I could feel my heart beat getting faster and faster.

"I could wake up like this for the rest of my life." He mumbled against my ear. I let out a small giggle the butterflies were exploding throughout not only my stomach but my whole body was tingling. "You have no idea how bad I want to kiss you right now." He said

"Too bad I've got to go." I said jumping up and ruining the moment. I really care about Him. It may even be love, but I'm just not ready to commit. Ive still got to focus on getting better first and I hope he understands that. I'm scared it will ruin everything.

He grabbed my arm and I turned to face him. He looked so sad it almost broke my heart.

"Please don't go" he said choking on his words.

"I have to go meet Haley at Starbucks. Were going to get all fancy for tonight." I explained.

"Can't you just stay here? you look better without all that makeup shit anyway" he said rather annoyed with my teasing him like that and then just leaving.

"I'm sorry I have to go. I'll meet you here tonight okay?" I said leaning down to give him one last hug an a kiss on the cheek. Before leaving out the door.

Taylor and I had such and odd relationship. We're not technically together, but we flirt majorly and if you saw us together you would assume we were a couple. I really really like him, I always have since day one he was my favorite of the boys. A lot of people find him annoying, but not me. I find his loud, outgoing, crazy nature rather appealing. He's so care free and I've always adored that about him. I've always been and always will be a Taylor girl. He means more to me than I can even out into words.

In the back of my mind I keep thinking in just two weeks the boys will be going back home. Summer will be over and I will be left here in California with nothing. I'll never get to see the boys again, I'll probably never see Haley again either and this whole summer will feel as if it was only a dream.

What happens when I fall completely head over heels in love with Taylor and he leaves? I will be completely shattered, heartbroken, back to my original state, depressed, which will only lead to more cuts, burns, and bruises. I can't risk that, I can't risk the pain of losing him although either path I take at some point he gets taken from me. This way is only slightly easier, I expect him to leave, if I fell in love with him I couldn't bear to see him leave because he would take my heart with him and I would be nothing, useless without him.

Even now, Im nothing with out him and the rest of the boys. I would never be this close to being happy.

I walked into the Starbucks that was just around the corner. Forcing a smile as I saw Haley sitting patiently sipping on her coffee.

"There you are." She said hugging me. "You're late."

"Sorry. Taylor kinda occupied me." I blushed.

"You two love birds are so cute. I'm glad everything is working out for you, Parker." She said sincerely. "I don't think I've seen you this happy since you made the varsity volleyball team our sophomore year."

"I am happy, but I'm also really scared." I admitted and I saw a faint frown show upon her face.

"Why?" she simply asked.

"Because this is all about to come to an end, sooner than I care to admitted. We all knew that this summer couldn't last forever. Soon enough we'll all go our separate ways and I'll probably never see Taylor again. I can't let my emotions get the best of me." I could feel the lump in my throat grow as I continued on. "I'm really trying to he better, Haley. I owe it all to you and the boys. And all that happiness is about to be ripped from me."

Haley immediately wrapped me into a comforting hug.

"You're aren't going to lose me, Parker. And to be honest I don't think you're going to lose the boys either. They all care a lot about you. They aren't going to just throw you to the wind like that." She tried ease my mind. "Now come in let's go get dolled up so we can make everyone drool." She teased.

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TAYLORS POV

All of us guys were dressed and ready to go. We stood waiting patiently in the lobby for the girls arrival. I pulled out my phone and began scrolling through my twitter feed. Many of the fans we tweeting about how excited they were to see us in our tux and a few were talking about Haley and Parker. They've become fairly well known as they've been seen in lots of vines, youtube videos, and several pictures. Everyone seemed to love the girls for the most part. Of course you have your haters but the good comments out numbered the bad ones by far. I stopped scrolling as one tweet caught my attention.

@tatertotcaniff : Parker is such an attention seeking bitch. She should've cut deeper.

(A/N idk if that's a really twitter user or not it just kinda popped in my head. If that is someone's twitter user I apologize. I don't mean to offend anyone.)

That single tweet had changed my whole mood. I was fuming, how could someone say such hurtful things? They have no idea what he's been through. Imagine what Parker would think if he sees this. It would completely crush her. I need to find a way to put an end to this and make sure she never sees this. After unfollowing and reporting the user, me being my blunt self tweeted about the situation.

@TaylorCaniff: for those of you saying bad things about Parker I will unfollow and block you.

@TaylorCaniff: you guys don't even know what kind of hell she's been through, don't be so quick to judge.

@TaylorCaniff: She's actually a very nice and gorgeous girl. And she means a lot to me.

I was pulled from my ranting by a tap on my shoulder. I looked up to see Cameron nearly drooling at the sight of something. I followed his gaze to see the most beautiful girl in the world. I was taken back by the sight. I couldn't find any words in my vocabulary. My mind was drawing a blank.

Her long dark hair was curled in spirals and braided in a complicated sequence to fall on one side. Her dress was perfect, it hugged her in all the right places. She was absolutely stunning. I couldn't take my eyes off her for a single second. I just want her to be mine already.

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