Brokenhearted (a Taylor Caniff fanfic )

Chapter 35

TAYLORS POV

My face was wet as the tears fell and I approached the small head stone before me. There were different colored roses placed on it, each rose symbolizing a different meaning.

White - for purity, innocence, silence, youth.

Light pink - for kindness, sympathy, gentleness.

Yellow and Red - for friendship, for falling in love.

And

Black - for death, a final farewell.

The rose I held in my hand was a bit simpler.

A single red rose, to say my final 'I love you'.

The most common rose, but yet the most meaningful.

I dropped to my knees as my eyes bore a hole in the concrete before me.

The words written in stone.

Parker Faye
1996-2014

'A broken heart that the world forgot'

I didn't hold my tears back, I let them fall, harder than ever before.

"Parker Annmarie Faye, my first love, my heart, my sunshine. There are so many things I never got the chance to say, I'll never get the chance to say, one of them being I'm sorry. I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for not being there for you the way I should have. I'm sorry for not going after you, I'm sorry for breaking my promise, I'm sorry for putting you through so much, I'm sorry I couldn't fix you. Most of all, I'm sorry I didn't save you. I wanted to more than anything. I wanted to be your reason for living, instead I was your reason for dying. I just wanted to make you happy, instead I broke your heart. There are so many things I wish I could do over. I would give anything to see your smile, to hear your voice, to hold you in my arms just one last time. I'm not sure I'll ever get over this pain in my heart, the guilt. I'm not sure I can ever get over losing you. I never got the chance to say it, but I love you Parker Faye and I will love you until I take my very last breathe. You may no longer be here in the flesh but I will carry your memory in my heart."

A crisp autumn air surrounds me as I stare at the fiery sunset before me watching as the sun begins to slowly fade to be replaced by the cold, bleak, darkness of the moons piercing veil.

I place my rose alongside the rest and turned to walk away with each step I take it only causes the hole in my heart to grow bigger and the pain in my chest to grow stronger.

Saying goodbye is never easy
It's the hardest thing to do
But what hurts even more
Is I didn't get the chance to say it to you.

Yesterday is just a memory
Our laughter was sunny and bright
Then clouds started to gather
And you were no longer in sight.

You were my first real love
A love I'll never forget
How you left without a warning
No good-byes, only my regrets.

Wherever I may be now
Always searching for another so true
To place my world of emotion
Handing my love to someone like you.

If again I must go there
And experience all the pain
I would do it in a minute
For all the good I would gain.

No matter what my wrongs
You offered only love
Until the day you left me
For your new home up above.

I know you still are with me
Your love is within my heart
Though life is no longer present
Our souls will never part.

With this I'll say my final goodbye
And leave you with this simple red rose
Just so you know you truly were loved.

Goodbye Parker Faye.