A Great Escape

AGE: Chapter 12

No. No no no. No!!! Please!

I poured every tears I have. I can't. I don't want to loose him. Please! I tried to reach him but I can't. Parang may pumipigil sa akin. Damn it!

Justine please! He's just staring at me and after a second he slowly turned around as I watch him walk away. Without saying any fuckin' words.

"Justine!!!" I called one last time.

"Trisha! Damn it! Wake up!" Anthony tries to make me up.

And I did. Shit, I'm sweating.

"What the fuck." I whispered while catching my breath. "Nightmare Haha! Sorry about that." I fake a smile to Anthony wishing that he will not ask about it.

I got up from my bed-his bed pala and massaged my temple. Damn nightmare. Damn Justine. Gago ka kahit kelan.

"Does it still hurts?" Tanong nya.

Tumango lang ako at inayos ko yung upo ko para makapag usap kami ng maayos.

"You can tell me if you want to. I'll just listen. I promise." He smiled.

I don't know if I can trust him. I'm hurt. Nakakahiya na malaman niya na mahina at nasasaktan ako. Ayokong gamitin niya yun sakin tuwing pinagsasbihan niya ako.

"Promise me after nito kakalimutan mo yung tungkol dito." I asked him. Kailangan ko ng mapagsasabihan.

He smiled. "I promise."

Then I told him everything. From what happened with Justine to my nightmares. I told him that whenever I have a migraine, I always dream of him. Same old shit na alam ko na kung paano nagsimula at kung pano matatapos. Maiiwan akong luhaan.

I broke down. I cried in front of him at bahala na kung ano iisipin niya. Kailangan ko lang ilabas ito. Kailangan ko lang ng makakausap. Ang sakit sakit kasi talaga. Kung papaano ko siya pinaglaban hanggang sa nakuha niya yung tiwala ng mga magulang ko. Lahat yun nasayang kaya naiinis ako.

"You know Trisha," he started.

Napatingin ako sa kanya. Pinunasan niya mga luha ko at bumugtong hininga.

"I know pain. I felt that too. Everyone feels that because that's what makes us human. I cry, you cry. Everyone moves on, some doesn't. It's your choice if you'll let your pain imprison you." He sighed and looked outside his window.

"I'm not perfect Trish, everyone makes mistakes. No matter how small or big it is, we have nothing to do with it. It's their choice anyway, our choice like what I said. I also broke someone's heart. But I don't regret what I did. The decision I made, it made me happy and I know that someone is happy for me too. We need to be selfish sometimes. Kailangan lang nila, kailangan niyo lang na tanggapin at intindihin dahil minsan kung hindi para saakin kundi para din sainyo." Nag tagalog siya.

I stared at him in disbelief. I half smiled because on the thought.

"Nag tagalog ka dude. Pero hindi naman kasi sinabi ni gago kung bakit eh. Basta nakipag break siya and poof! He left me! Ish gay move."

Anthony laughed at something. Sinapak sapak ko siya kasi parang hindi na siya nakikinig sa akin. Bwiset to talaga.

"What? Ow! Stop!" He complained habang ginagawang shield yung mga kamay niya.